I know my work/life balance has been shit recently, and I am not proud of it at all, I'm actually incredibly ashamed and embarrassed of it. Trust me, I know how good I have it, I know how incredibly lucky I am to be able to stream as an occupation. Streaming has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. Streaming has given me a creative outlet, it's given me confidence, a sense of purpose, a sense of belonging, and it's given me a lifestyle far surpassing what someone like me could have ever hoped for. I know you guys are gonna scoff and laugh whenever I say that I'm going to take some time off but my mental state has not been great lately, as I'm sure a lot of you have probably already noticed. I've made up an action plan for myself that consists of things like; going to the doctor (I've been having a lot of issues lately with my medication, my anxiety has been incredibly debilitating lately, my sleep cycles have been all over the place, etc) continuing going to some al-anon meetings, I've dealt with my mothers addiction my whole life, but it's really starting to take a toll on my recently, I'm trying to learn ways to stop being an enabler... which has been really hard and emotional. Completing my 2016 taxes, since, you know, they're over two months past due... and not really helping my anxiety issues either. I'm also going to be catching up on some other stuff I've been behind on, and most of all putting together some fun stuff to start doing on stream again... I know a lot of you have probably been fed up with my behavior lately, I am too, whenever I get back I'm going to try my hardest to make it up to you guys. Thank you to everyone who has shown me so much love and understanding, I've really needed it lately. I will be back the 21st.

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