Hey boogie, why all the 'fat' videos?
A long time ago I used to make about 1 'serious' video a week. I'd also try to make 1 francis rage a week and one rambling vlog a week as well. Sometimes, in between, I'd make videos about gaming.
I guess about a year ago I stopped talking about things I deemed important. I used to talk about all kinds of important things. Being fat. Being depressed. Being suicidal. Diversity. Bullying. Coping with death.
I stopped doing those on the regular about a year and a half ago. Some may say I did it because I wanted to focus on getting views, and that's true. Others might say that it became less important to me and that's true.
But the real reason I stopped was because I was afraid. I'd get a lot of negative feedback from 'fans' who didn't like these videos. I'd reiterate that my channel has always been a variety channel and even though they've come in for the gaming news and sketches, this was an important part of what I do. They'd ignore that, continue to get frustrated, and eventually I got scared of scaring them away.
Not to mention, every time you push the envelope on one of these things the backlash was unreal. A few dozen death threats later you can imagine I became genuinely scared to make these videos.
A few weeks back I decided to participate in a culture war that's happening on one of my favorite websites. I created a video about being fat. After I was done with this video, I spoke with my wife at length and we both agreed that I could turn this into 'a big fat series.' i began writing scripts in my head and made plans to make about 5 videos on the topic.
The reception in many cases have been great. Sure, I was featured on reddit for one of these videos, but that's not what I mean. I mean that many people have said these words helped them feel better, think differently, or be more comfortable in their own skin.
That's really important.
I'm no longer going to let myself be scared to do the work I feel is the most important. I plan to still do unboxings, and talk about gaming, and do francis rage sketches, and everything else. But probably about once a week I'm going to be covering more serious topics if I can come up with one to discuss. I'm not going to let anyone make me be afraid to do my life's work any more.
For those of you that don't enjoy these types of videos, please endure them. I mean, you don't have to watch them. But just accept that they're going to be uploaded to the channel. Just wait for the videos you like. If the mere existance of these videos is too much for you to bear, though, I understand. I'm sad to see you go, but I'm glad you ever spent time with me to begin with.
But to me, this is very important; I gotta do what I gotta do. I don't care if it costs me views, or money, or loss of sleep. I don't care if these negative comments cause me anxiety. I have to do what I have to do t make the world a little bit better. Damn the consequences.
I hope you understand.