Jessica49 · @Jessicafrndz
24th Jan 2023 from TwitLonger
My Gross Mistake: Addressing The Gym Video
A lot of my content is light hearted and humorous but I want to start off by saying this is the most serious thing I have ever posted.
First of all, I want to apologize sincerely to the man at the gym where this all started. He didn’t do anything wrong to me and I blew our interaction out of proportion. I know many people think that I'm only apologizing because I got called out from the video I posted and this is half right. If I wasn’t called out for this video I wouldn’t have had the chance to learn from this mistake or even realize I made a mistake to begin with. When I first posted the video I felt I was completely in the right and I felt I was making a good attempt to connect and relate to my female audience who may have dealt with uncomfortable situations at the gym. And now after reading literally thousands of comments about me, the situation and the man in question it truly opened my eyes to how damaging this could have been for him. Men and women deal with very different problems in the realm of the opposite sex and after looking through the lens of an innocent man put in a situation like that. It honestly made me feel sick to my stomach with guilt.
Before writing this I was posting whatever made me feel justified for the video which was wrong on my part and I am extremely immature for doing so and trying to make light of a situation that is a lot more serious and should be taken that way. I have suffered from sexual assault and sexual harassment prior to this situation, and in the past these events were extremely damaging to me. After speaking with friends that were honest with me I was able to keep an open and understanding mind. It took literally thousands of people displaying their distaste for the way I acted for me to realize this in full effect. Because the man at the gym did nothing damaging to me, and I still felt threatened in the situation I reacted by trying to cope with it in probably the worst way possible. My past isn’t an excuse or a justification for what I did but it is something I want to personally and professionally address with a therapist in the future. Because I don't want to, and will never, hurt anyone ever again in this way. The “jokes” I included in the tiktok were far from tasteful and funny, I look back at that video now and cringe that it ever even got posted. Again, because of the wakeup call given to me by mainly Joey Swoll and his community. I think it’s important to call people out on their mistakes and in the words of Joey help them “Do better”. This is exactly what I plan to do with not just my content but my life moving forward.
Now this is already becoming a lot to read and honestly I considered making a video to help convey my sincerity for what I'm saying. But I also want to prove this isn't a "publicity stunt" or a way to farm clicks so I feel like this is the best way to express what I'm doing to move forward. So I’m deciding to remove the videos off of all my platforms because I don't want this misconception. Some people might think this is a way of me hiding the video or sweeping it under the rug but this text isn't going anywhere. I eventually decided that there’s no real combination of words I could put together to gain the trust of my community and the people who are just discovering me in the worst way possible. With my 600k followers on tiktok and as an influencer I hold a lot of responsibility to use my platform in a way that spreads love and happiness which I did the exact opposite of that. I’m sorry to the men and women who deal with or have dealt with false/true allegations of SA or SH and if I made their situations feel belittled by mine. I apologize to my fans who have supported me and have been supporting me through this, I messed up and I'm going to just own this mistake.I love making content and sharing my experiences with my community and people in general. And I hope I'm able to show growth not only in a few days and weeks but the months and years as I continue to be able to do what I love. This will be an ugly scar on my character for a long time until I can show that I am growing. I just hope people give me the chance to. So truly I am sorry and I will not just say that I am sorry like it's gonna fix everything I am going to show and prove to everyone that this is not who I am and this is not who I am going to continue to be. Mistakes help me grow and I am willing to learn and take people’s constructive criticism where it is needed. In hopes of moving on after this situation I will no longer be discussing the topic any further. Along with that I will be taking a break from social media until I am in the right mental space to keep making content.
Thank you for reading, I love you all.
(ps I don't have an OnlyFans, I have Fanhouse which is a SFW website where I connect with my supporters)