BeaKie · @beakiew0w
15th Oct 2022 from TwitLonger
Cut/Mutually parting ways with bhop + LFT!
tl;dr
had a team meeting and decided it was best for me not to be included on the roster for next season due to not fitting into the structure and vision of what the core of aris, silas and swahn want. And I am LFT! (read below)
LOOKING FOR TEAM!
I'm now looking for a team for ecl season 43, my availability is 24/7 as my ambition is to reach a lot farther than I've already played. I have played every role there is to play in ecl! And that includes igling and awping. For the right team I will do whatever it takes to elevate them to the next level. I do feel most comfortable as a lurker/support on t side and for ct side I enjoy doing a mix of anchoring and rotating. I can also provide a lot of mid round input if a secondary voice is needed and pick up secondary awp comfortably. I don't feel uncomfortable in any spot or role.
I feel like I can bring a lot of fire and energy to a team if needed, but if the environment needs to be kept calm I am also a very cool headed player. I would like to think I can also take constructive criticism and use it to make myself a better version of myself as well as do the same for my teammates.
I have made playoffs 2 times and retained my spot in ecl the other 4 seasons. Could have also made playoffs potentially 2 more times but those are their own stories. I also have 1 cash cup first place under my belt as well as some 3rd/4th finishes. Recently also got second place in cct. Also very close to qualifying for the rmr x( Some other things I could throw in there also but I don't wanna add too much.
long story!:
I originally joined bhop back in February of this year, back when the roster was called "disconnected". The team was spermy, stanislaw, delta9 and phantom. Wildy different from what it is today. A big reason why I initially joined the team was to not only reunite with my old teammates from season 35 advanced (spermy and delta9) but to have the opportunity to play with stanislaw.
I've had the opportunity to play every role there was to play on bhop. I learned a lot about the game during my time on this team and also got to play with a lot of cool people. Every teammate I've had on this roster I have nothing but good things to say about them as well as this team being the healthiest environment that I've been a part of.
At the end of the day, the most recent iteration of this roster had a lot of potential no doubt. From being 1 best of 3 away from qualifying for the rmr 2 separate times, to almost making playoffs (unlucky internet grief on my end last bo3) and also some other close qualifiers in which we couldn't break our "finals curse" a lot of the time. We could never reach what in my opinion was our true potential, which is where the team and I start to disagree a little bit.
My teammates decided that they need to move forward without me due to me not fitting into the structure or vision of the teams future. They ideally want to play a structured, team style of cs. And they don't see me fitting into that necessarily, has nothing to do with personal relationships on the team. Simply put I just do not fit inside of the team which I have also been feeling for a little while. Although I disagree with their decision, I fully understand and respect it.
In my opinion we couldn't meet our true potential due to the roles not being as good as they could've been in my eyes, I won't throw anyone under the bus but I do feel as though if given better roles where I could've had more of an impact the season would have looked way different. And that may be a selfish viewpoint but for a lot of the season I felt as though I wasn't able to contribute as much as I could have. After bringing it up in a team conversation, we agreed to change roles after the season was over (which did not happen and that's okay). I was also promised a lot of things after cxzi left the team. Most of those things became empty promises. And again I'm not throwing anyone under the bus, I feel as though on this roster I wasn't given a fair chance at almost any point during any iteration of bhop to show what I can do or what I can bring to the team. I also believe swapping our coaches did harm than good as coopertrooper was a good morale coach and lajt is more of a technically strategic coach. I love both of them and they are both very good at what they do, however I feel like the team strived more with cooper and I made that clear with the team.
Even though the roster was short lived, the bhop that consisted of: silas, cxzi, brett, austin and I was where I felt most comfortable. And although that roster never touched an ecl match. We were able to win a cash cup with just 3 weeks together. Which is no large feat by any means but it was the first time I felt like I was playing my true part.
I want to again say thank you to all my teammates but also bhop for helping me on this journey.
Thank you for reading if you have made it this far <3
-Brody or BeaKiew0w :)