jenni ♡ · @nabiichuVAL

10th Oct 2022 from TwitLonger

My compete honest and transparent truth about EVERYTHING

I am sorry. I fucked up and I know I did. There is honestly no other way to put it. I know I should've come out sooner with the truth about everything that night. The guilt from my mistake was eating me up every minute since then and I wanted to be honest but with all of the stress, I was incapable of making the right decision. I never wanted to play the victim and never wanted to hurt anyone along the way, even though ultimately what I did hurt people and could've really ruined them.

Everything that @1dsylexia claimed I did in his twit longer is true. I entertained his idea of pretending to be non-binary in order to compete and helped him sub in for my previous team during VCT. I know now how awful what we did was. I should've shut down the idea immediately and moved on, but I didn't. I am sorry to anyone and everyone I have hurt with the terrible decision I made.

Regarding the cheating allegations, I was made to believe dsylexia was not cheating prior to or during the matches in the tournament, however, with some of the tweets coming to light, I am not sure anymore. I have no idea whether or not they were abusing third-party programs throughout the entirety of what I have known them for.

The Game Changers scene was a community made to be a safe space for marginalized genders, including but not limited to those who identify as female, nonbinary, and gender fluid. I hope despite all of the recent drama and the terrible decision I made, we do not turn against those who are truly part of this community. Those who are genuinely nonbinary, genderfluid, and transgender will ultimately suffer from my actions and I am sorry to everyone who is affected.

I plan on taking a step back from competing and the community for a while to work on myself and improve to ultimately become a better person. I am sorry to my friends, to those I let down, and I am especially sorry to those who sided with me and backed me up without hesitation. I fucked up and I am not asking for forgiveness, nor am I expecting any. I am making this statement for closure, not just for me but for everyone to put an end to the pain I have caused with my mistake. And actions are much more meaningful than words, I will come back a better person. I promise I will take the time to reflect and learn from all of this.

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