Angel ☣️ · @toxxxicsupport
21st Sep 2022 from TwitLonger
My experiences with Minx & the streaming community-
I am not affiliated with any of the current events brought to light however, I have been holding onto a situation that is quite similar with someone involved. I'm tired of never saying anything and I hate watching others on the platform go through situations even remotely similar and also made to be a joke. (Later I will explain why I didn’t directly name names back then.)
I had made a tweet in 2020 stating my experiences in sexual trauma, peer pressure, and uncomfortable positions no one should ever be put into.* One of the incidents is what happened in 2018 at a Twitchcon party hosted by Minx and her friends. At this time, Minx was one of my best friends, we had a friend group of just girls that we were pretty proud of. By the time our friend and I arrived at the party, most of the girls were asleep or gone. We decided to stay for a bit as we didn’t see a point of immediately leaving once arriving when people were still partying, besides Minx was still awake and there. I felt safe.
*The tweet about the situation: https://twitter.com/toxxxicsupport/status/1275167480273608710?s=20&t=ee4Xhc9D0PlB8flGC-VozA
A party game had started that my friend and I didn’t understand. (Apparently it was a UK drinking game??) We decided to join in and at that time I honestly didn’t see anything seriously wrong, I’m very competitive and believed I could learn it as I went. I just wanted to be included. Every time you messed up, you had to drink an entire red solo cup of vodka or take off an item of clothing. Around that time, Minx decided to sit out and sleep. I ended up drinking and eventually had to remove my shirt. At one point someone said something along the lines of “There’s clearly some of us that aren’t as exposed as the others, let’s just do the truth or dare.” I knew how those types of games went, so I always answered Truth. The questions I was asked were obviously sexual, but it didn't bother me that much as whatever could possibly be a dare. My friend however, was drunk FAST. She ended up getting into only her bra and underwear in front of at least 13 guys. I was uncomfortable and ready to go. It got to the point where my friend stood up to take off the last of her clothes, fell over instantly, and knocked over her cup of vodka. I asked her if she was okay and if she wanted to leave and she insisted we stay so I went to clean the vodka up and came back to them telling me someone’s dare was to remove the rest of my clothes. I was confused? I didn’t lose but I had to remove my clothes anyways? I told them I’m good and I didn’t want to and my replies were drowned out by echoes of the guys just telling me to do it, it’s okay, they won’t judge, it’s part of the game, etc. I continued to say no and got up to leave. I helped my friend get her clothes on, ordered an Uber, and left. None of them said goodbye, they actually left the house, and pretended like I didn’t exist after telling me I ruined the party.
Someone at the party who saw what happened from the sidelines: https://i.postimg.cc/xdcFjBTN/2.png
I went to my Airbnb, and cried to my friend*, explaining the story. The next day, I told Minx and she seemed so kind and forgiving and even went with me to tell some of our other friends in the Twitch Partner lounge, she seemed so supportive. A few hours later, out of nowhere, she texted me and told me I’m not allowed to go back to that Airbnb and she didn’t want to talk to me. She told me I’d ruin their careers and that if I went public she’d release things about me I’ve told her in secret.
Him vouching that I talked to him that night about everything/
Her messages about the incident in 2018:
https://imgur.com/a/300pa4V
When I made my tweet in 2020, not naming any names, she dmed me on Twitter. She at first tried to seem understanding almost as if she was playing innocent, unaware of what happened in 2018. After I told her I don't understand her ploy, she changed her demeanor and told me she was going to be addressing the situation on her social media, twitch, YouTube, etc. She even told me she would hate to see me lose my career when I support so much of my family.. I didn't want that, I just wanted to share my story without having to deal with anyone involved. She knew that. She essentially manipulated, intimidating, and blackmailed me into being silent. She protected them. She still continues to protect abuser friends and at times, seems to take it as a joke.
Her messages after I posted my tweet:
https://imgur.com/a/b3cor1D
I am not a perfect person, so I don’t want to be hypocritical. I’ve done shitty things and said shitty things. I was diagnosed with BPD 1 and have been on medication and go to therapy weekly for the last year due to it so I unfortunately understand her manic episodes and actions. However, It took a lot of growing up to realize I’m not always the victim and to try to make myself one every single time isn’t okay. I’ve also learned my actions cannot be justified due to my mental health.
Last year, I tried to reach out, as my therapist told me to reach out to anyone I’ve had issues with and let go of unhealthy resentment. Although she is to blame to an extent, I hated her as if she was one of the guys trying to get me and our friend to remove our clothes while drunk. I truly hoped she had changed with her growing platform but unfortunately I see it’s still ongoing.
I hope she gets legitimate help and can see her wrongdoings and grow from them, but for now I fully believe she should be held accountable for her actions. BPD and/or intoxication cannot be a fallback for any mistake. I wasn't the first person and sadly not the last. I’m tired of the victim blame and the protection of fucking weird and disgusting people. I’m tired of these things happening in the first place. I’m sorry for not speaking on it sooner.