The "Why I Quit TF2" Followup

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Hello!

Honestly, I didn't expect this many people to reach out to me with support over this and I absolutely appreciate it. To be honest, I was kinda dumb to release the video right before I went on vacation lmao - I was nervous as heck during the entire trip there. But upon landing and seeing the support I felt way better. I was convinced on the plane ride over that making the video was a mistake, but obviously it was the right decision.

Like I mentioned in the video, I had tons and tons of rough drafts that I wrote up of a script and everything - the doc is currently at 10 pages. But I didn't like reading from the script and I scrapped the entire project multiple times. On a whim I decided to record it, without the script and just speaking freely. Because of this, I forgot to mention a few things! But if you're expecting drama or names or more spicy info you wont find it here.

I noticed that people were focusing on my experiences playing and being in the comp TF2 community. Many people wished that I gave out names and was more specific about the incidents that occurred. I'd just like to say that I appreciate people willing to put their dukes up for me but those things happened years and years ago. I forgot to stress that those things are in the past, and need to stay there. Yes we can learn from them and do better in the future, but we can do that without starting hunts for things that are better off left in the past. The reasons I brought those things up was to explain why I left so that people would understand and allow me to move on.

Out of the things I mentioned in that video, my experiences in competitive were less than ideal but what happened after I left was the most demoralizing out of it all. The actions people took against me when I tried to focus on being a content creator were the most malicious and damaging of them all for me to be honest. Someone found my address and was sharing it, someone purposefully put me $2,500 in the negative with a fraudulent donation, people were purposefully taking my kind gestures and turning them into pure cash for themselves.

I've been fighting waves of depression for years over the thought of TF2 being the end of everything I've worked so hard to create. I've been losing subscribers on Youtube for 3 years straight and my Twitch viewership hasn't grown since I stopped playing TF2. I don't really know how to explain how terrible it feels to day after day watch what you've created and keeps you going slowly erode away because you tried to better yourself. I put blood sweat and tears into the game and it shot me in the back when I decided i'd given enough. Dang that sucks!

Anyways enough depressing talk lmao. For the first time in literal years I have a net-positive increase in subscribers on Youtube. The amount of comments i've gotten in support have been overwhelming but believe me I have read each one of the DM's you all have sent me and I greatly appreciate it. Regardless how the rest of the year pans out, I now know I made the right decision and it was thanks to all of you.

And finally. Slightly off-topic but convenient to place here. I've honestly never felt comfortable seeing my face online, photos and drawings. I'm not entirely sure why but it just doesn't sit well with me, especially edits or photoshops of my face. This is why I've been using "Purple Dogg" as my avatar. Detaching my very self from this complex work I do has made it much easier and less stressful for me to navigate and interact with people. "Tagg" and I are two different people, and separating them has been incredibly helpful. Big thanks to my community for making me a Corporate Mascot to take ease the burden of having to monetize my very self of being on this virtual realm called the internet :)

Thanks for the support everyone <3

(oh god now im having doubts about posting this too AAAA IM GUNNA PRESS THE BUTTON)

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