Blessings on blessings 🌻
Where to start..
It's been a long time since I wrote something with the people on my mind who make all this possible, dota fans, OG fans, you the spectator.
I'm not as good with words as I'd like to be, and definitely no better at writing but at least you'll know I made this when it's full of errors.👀
2018 was my wildest year to date, I experienced things I never imagined, saw things I thought not possible and climbed the tallest mountain that I tried climbing over and over again to no avail.
Saying that, none of this would have been possible without the people sorrounding me. I've been blessed with a beautiful adventure so far and it all lies in the surroundings.
Back in 2008 I vividly remember a moment when I just got back from school, we had this community pool and the sun was shining as bright as it could in our Scandinavian climate. I felt something that day when i was swimming, as if the universe had hit me from the inside of my head. It was an overwhelming feeling of confidence, I felt I had the ability to reshape the universe, that nothing was impossible. Abseloute freedom.
TI was that feeling again, manifested in that tournament, in the game, in the team.
After winning TI I felt eveything I imagined plus so much more, but like the major wins it washed away a lot of self-doubt away only this time the doubt was not coming back.
DotA means so much to me, it's like the stepping stone into life that I didnt know I needed. It's a mirror into the soul, it's a language in itself and it has roots that extend deep into human nature. Thinking about the absolute beauty I've seen over the years make me choke up.
So post TI I took time to think about everything, I spent over a decade diving into this game and there I know there is more to life.
Should I stop? What should i do next if I stop? Why should I keep playing?
I don't think I'll ever stop looking at the game only if the game itself dissapears, but one day I'll definitely look to put more time working with something else.
The conclusion I have come to is I will play as long as the fire inside me burns. My purpose in life is to destroy the enemy ancient, show that our team's ideas are better and are executed better.
Dota is war, people coming together to defeat other people. To defend and conquer. Anger to fuel, Motivation to keep doing it, Love to make the teamwork, Patience, Courage and so much more.
I always loved the beauty in how a team would become successful, a group of people coming together with the purpose of winning the war, but there's no getting around the human aspects.
In other words,
To succeed you need to become a better teammate and a better human, and trust that everyone else will.
The will to win is powerful and I've seen people change themselves chasing the DotA dream.
I spent a lot of time self-reflecting last half year and I am trying to improve on other areas DotA didn't help me with, like physical health, environmental awareness and my relations to the people outside the game.
I'd love to do better on all three 🤪 but I hope for acceptance and patience as DotA is still my purpose in life.
I would like to thank my team, they know I love them but can never say it enough.
The people who cared for me and helped me even when I can't repay their time spent on me.
Everyone reading this, if you support us or the game and help make dreams come true thank you ❤️.
A huge thanks to Icefrog and the team behind DotA, from the bottom of my heart thank you for enlightening my life.