What happened at HCT.
Sorry for keeping you guys in the dark and not posting this sooner, I wanted to stay away from social media yesterday and today I spent most of the day travelling home.
So it was the final round of Swiss and my match was selected to be one of the spectated side matches, and coincidentally the person sitting next to me was selected as well. This means that we both have to wait a few minutes in the deck selection screen before we are told by an admin to start the game. So as the minutes went by I was getting more and more nervous thinking about matchup, until eventually without thinking much about it i typed into the hct admin message box (without pressing enter to send) something along the lines of: "do I play for hard fatigue in the warrior matchup". I was hoping the person sitting next to me would see this message on my screen and give me a nod or something to ease my anxiety a bit. (I typed it instead of asking out loud since I didn't want to distract nearby players who were busy playing) This is where I broke the rules, but I was so focused on thinking about my match that I didn't really process that I was breaking a rule. I already knew the answer to that matchup question and I have no idea why I typed it since I can ask that literally any other time, so before anyone even had a good chance to see it I minimized it and forgot about it and then a few seconds after I was notified that I could begin my game. Once that game ended I typed enter to tell the admin my next class pick but before I could type I guess I pressed enter twice and managed to send the message from earlier to the admin which lead them to disqualify me under the suspicion of cheating.
I was never trying to gain a competitive advantage since the question wasn't relevant to any game in particular as it was typed in the deck select screen, but even though I didn't realize exactly what I was doing at the time, I still broke the rules so I accept the disqualification.
The rest of the day was one of the worst I've had as I've never been more disappointed, embarrassed and angry with myself before.
I don't really know what to do going forward. Part of me wants to continue to try competing and streaming HS and redeem myself. The other part of me just wants to runaway from Hearthstone and never look back since the last thing I want to be known as is a cheater.
Regarding my situation with my team, the Pittsburgh knights: The Knights are not affiliated with me as my contract had actually ended recently and I was planned to re-sign for this year but given the recent events I will no longer be playing for them as of now. It was great working with the Knights though, they've always supported me and really helped me grow as a player.
I want to apologize to anyone who I've let down and I hope I can somehow make it up to everyone in the future.