Thanks you for watching. But I'm done.

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Hey folks, probably not what you want to be seeing from me and if it was, I’m sure you would’ve liked it to be in front of a camera but I don’t have the energy or the fortitude to sit in front of a camera for this.

I don’t think I need to really draw out this post the title gives it away. But to explain my decision it comes from a few places. For one I have worked like a machine to the point of collapse on numerous occasions making the videos as I have; you can only do so much with 6 hours a night so what’s 2 or 3 hours less sleep was a constant excuse; and even when I didn’t collapse over the past year especially I’ve felt unhappy not just in life but with what I was doing and how I was coping with it. When I say I worked like a machine I also mean that in the sense that I just put something together that fit a format and threw it out on the channel because I needed to get something out and while I enjoyed it to some extent I could tell I was offering nothing unique to anybody regardless of what any algorithm had to say about it.

When I did videos about anime I also did it because I needed to do something different with myself creatively and it basically turned out the exact same way as anything else I made and I offered nothing really interesting. I just checked off a few boxes of talking points and closed it out and it sucked realizing what I was doing especially because during the period making them I had A LOT of extra time I didn’t have before this whole year to really let that epiphany sink in.
Once it really sank in it finally hit me that I’m just not cut out for this whole thing. I don’t enjoy what I make so doing it as a hobby isn’t really mentally satisfying, and even the idea of making a new channel to start over would just go down the same path as before.

I haven’t taken care of myself, I didn't listen to those around me telling me to stop or slow down and breathe. I just kept jumping off of rooftops (figuratively).
So this time it’s for real. Luigi’s Mansion will be the last time I post any video under this channel. This will not be a case of “I’m finishing some videos first to see if I change my mind”
I am stopping effective immediately. My Patreon is closed effective immediately. And I will not be coming back.
Thank you all regardless for watching me and my weird opinions over the past few years and I’ll still be on Twitter even after this so I’m not disappearing from the social sphere altogether. Just from making my own videos.

Have a good one folks.
- Ken

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