Thoughts with a thank you.

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Hey guys,


How dare they release the highest undefeated 100% winrate highest kd widow in the league? Jokes aside, Id like to spin this around with some thoughts, Ill try keep it short and simple. 200 word essay due to tonight, here we go.


This story goes way back as I was approached by the one and only Seagull after my run with Fnatic. An offer on the table, He said "join NRG or fade away forever brother", Yes that a joke. He offered a slot as he had been eyeing me down for quite some time. A chance to play with Brandon himself, on a team filled with talent? Heck yiss, I took it. And so my chapter with NRG to be Shock begun.This is where I also had the opportunity to meet the fine people that worked with NRG. Owner and President; Andy & Brett, you two madmen. I love you both and will forever owe you for taking me into the family to begin with a year and a half ago. My road with Shock might end today, but this also concludes my time back in NRG aswell. A big thank you for bringing me joy and happiness on this journey, it hasnt all been easy, but goddamn did we not have fun. Had its fair share of bumpy roads, but alas, through thick and thin, I mustve done something right cause I made it onto the Shock roster for OWL.

I was joined by very talented teammates, the ones youve loved and still love from Shock basically everyday. And so our run in the first inaugural season is about to begin. Everyone is equally as excited and joyful to be participating in this. Unfortunately things sometimes just doesnt go your way and it would seem that it wasnt my time to shine. Id rather not spend too much time thinking about or talking about the past, because its already lead me onto writing this. I believe looking ahead and forgetting about the past is the key to growth, hence why we are skipping that part entirely.

I think my biggest take on the first season is learning new things and experiences I had never dealt with before. One definitely is patience, another one is excelling at any role whatever that role may happen to be - Coaching, Assisting, Helping, Guiding, Benching?(xd) etc, etc... This doesnt go without saying that I am so far away from being perfect. During the first weeks of the season a pretty weird process started within myself that unfortunately took a great deal of time to battle with.. The never-ending battle of always wanting to play and becoming antsy sitting around, wanting to stop disappointing fans by not playing which lead me to not focus on the important things.

I tried keeping it short and simple, and hopefully you made it all the way down here - Some closing words all in all to summarize my feelings. The truth is, I would be lying if I said I was happy with the outcome of the first season, of course I am not. I feel like I have so much more to give, so much more to do, and I am so goddamn hungry to frag that I cant even contain myself as I am writing this. I dont know for sure what the future has in store for me. With the recently acquired freedom I will give it a spin in my head and try and figure it out as I go along;

To all the fans, thank you, seriously. I couldnt be more proud of the group of people you are and the support youve given the past year and before that.

To the people who gave me a second chance to prove my worth, I am sorry I couldnt keep my end of the bargain. Maybe too much to ask but, heres hoping you can give a third one for another time.

To the people who dont fancy or like me at all. I still love you regardless.

Till next time.



Down below you have me writing a small little caption for each and every member of Shock, If its not interesting to you - Thank you for making it this far, I appreciate it.

Dhak - Absolute unit. Makes anyone laugh whenever, wherever. Has a ton of passion and joy and was seriously the father of the team. Taught me a great deal about mentality, and how to stay sharp regardless of what role you are on. May be the best lucio in his peak this game has ever seen, and hopefully you can whip that bastard out soon enough cause its a joy to watch. I will miss you buddy.

Nomy - Genuine is the first word that comes to mind. Nomy doesnt fuck around and is always spot on with everything. True to himself, but even more true to his teammates. You know what you get when you have nomy around, and its an excellent teammate. Me and Nomy wouldnt always agree on things, but we knew both of us are extremely talented and dedicated so we would figure it out together regardless and come to terms. Much love to you amigoch, I will miss you too.

Sinatraa - Oh you.. In person jay, youre one of the funniest dudes I ever have met. You are a dude who say what you feel and I cant respect it enough. Hilarious dude outside the game, but when you sit down and frag out, youre one of the fiercest. Keep up the grind. Thanks for getting me into sneakers, I will now go broke before decemeber. All love Jay, glad to be able to celebrate your 18th birthday. Hopefully I get to face you on stage in the future.

Nevix - Inte mycket och säga, du är en av OGs i Overwatch. Kommer sakna dig otroligt mycket för det har varit otroligt roligt att fått lira med dig sida vid sida igen efter Impulse 11. Fortsätt nöta, fortsätt jobba hårt så hoppas jag att få möjligheten att spöa skiten ur dig på scen i framtiden. Mycket kärlek till dig mannen. Kommer att sakna dig mest.

Moth - The most calmest dude ever. Super kind and will always help anyone who is asking for help. Also one of the people who impressed me with his raw skill when it comes to Overwatch as a whole. I dont know how he keeps tabs on literally everything that goes on, but I have nothing more than pure respect for his work. Thanks for helping me with a bunch of things during the season, I appreciate it.

Sleepy - Where do I even begin.. Itll be too long if I said everything I wanted to say buddy. We have been along this journey for so long and I am just gonna say, I love you bud, but I know we will see each other regardless.

Babybay - We were naturally born rivals in this team, but despite that. We always stayed true to one another and helped each other out no matter who was playing, and that sort of professionalism shouldnt be forgotten. I appreciate the words, the hangouts and baller things we got to do together despite not being able to play together as much. I wish you the best of luck and nothing else, I am coming for that ass on stage.

Danteh & Super - You were both my roommates for the first season, and it couldnt had been a better pair. You two are absolute nutjobs in the most positive way I can write it. You guys kept me alive and helped me stay afloat during the entire season and for that I cant thank you two enough. You two are both very young, but oh so skilled players already. I cant wait to see how the future will deal with you two when you just pack on more heat and knowledge as the game gets older. Hopefully I get to smack you both on stage in the near future, if not. I wish you the absolute best forever. Much love to both of you guys.

Architect & Choi - I think I speak for everyone on the team when I say that you two keeps everyone happy and in good spirits. Never in a bad mood, never rude, never angry, always uplifting and looking forward despite hard losses. I aspire to have ethier one of you guys energy for the future. Thanks for the team a happier place for everyone, and I cant wait to see what you two can do for the next season. I will miss you both. 안녕히 가세요

The champs who doesnt always get mentioned but deserve love aswell.

Harsha - Stop getting bigger arms so fast, I cant keep up. Will miss you Harsha, You do tons of work for the team, it just that people dont always see it. I appreciate your kindness and wish the best for you.

Coaching Staff (NineK, Junk, Crusty) - We didnt have enough time, as I like to say it. You guys came in very late into the season, but regardless of short I got a glimpse of the hard work you guys do for the team. The sheer amount of respect I have for you guys is endless, and thank you for trying your absolute best to lift my spirits when you guys came in and gave me my confidence back even though our time together was so incredibly short. With you guys helping the the Shock for S2 any other team really has to watch out. Thanks everything boys.

Cory & Drew - Love you both, no one really knows the hard work you guys put in. But I always knew and I still do. I hope you guys have an awesome bright future ahead of you both, I will sincerely miss you two.

Andy & Brett - Not much to say guys, just a big massive thank you for this 1½ years. I wish I could had done more for you guys, which will forever be my biggest regret. But the Shock will forever be in good hands with you guys at the top. It mightve been a tough and rough 1½ years, but arguably the best life learning experiences that came with it. A massive thank you.

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