Muzz and I have broken up.

I don’t want a train of rumour and uncertainty with those who know me, so I would appreciate those who take their time to read this. I don't want anyone thinking anything other than this is a sad end to what has been nearly 13 amazing years of my life, spent with someone who I love and loved and still hold dearly.

Muzz and I met in the end of our teens, and in those subsequent years have grown and changed into adults in our early thirties. That change has been dramatic through life and an experience I was glad that I could share with her.

Although our relationship has been through some troubled times and rocky roads, we have been a force that strove to help one another. Muzz helped me through my own brush with death and recovery and I would like to think that I helped her as much as she helped me.

I am not without blame. I was not the boyfriend that Muzz deserved and whilst I think I did right by her I feel that she can’t be held back by me any longer. She has become all she is on her own, regardless of any help or hindrance on my part.

As the days go on, time will eventually heal us both. Until then I ask that you extend the hand of friendship to her, in a time where she will need all of you to be there for her. As much as I have been given an amazing level of support from everyone I feel that efforts are best placed with her.

Muzz knows that I will never exclude her from my life, and although she has made it clear she would prefer to separate completely she knows that she will always be my closest friend. I can forgive her the need to want that separation, as even writing this I can’t help but cry when I think of her.

Arlo will always be my little boy, and I know that Muzz will not exclude him from my life. But coming home to an empty house today after a day's work was heart wrenching. I know he has gone to better care than I can ever give him, and I am glad he is with his mother who I know he loves dearly.

I will close by saying only this. I do not have an ounce of hate in my heart for Muzz, and although our lives are separating she will always have a special place in my life.

Please do right by me and be there for her.

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