I'm Sorry and Goodbye
This is Planty, but you probably knew that. I've been away from the fandom for a very long time, and I've moved on to much bigger and better things. I've taken time to reflect on myself. I've become a better person, have been very succesful in my chosen field, and life is pretty good. But occasionally I think about what I did almost 4-5 years ago and I wonder where I could've done better.
The answer is alot. I could've done a lot better. I could tell you why I did it, but the answer wouldn't be very satisfying. I'm 22 now, have a house, a family, a wonderful husband, and an amazing career.
A lot changes in 5 years. The reason I faked Stella wasn't for attention, or for fame, or to hurt anyone. I was a dramatic child, a teenager that wanted to be involved in the production of something I loved, so I became desperate. What I did was wrong. Very, very, very wrong. Literally, I think about it almost every day.
That sounds silly, but it's true. I think about all the people I hurt. The amazing friends and talented producers who's reputations I hurt or bridges I burned, just because I wanted to feel important. From the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry. I am so sorry to Tyler, to Cien, to Aki, to everyone I hurt, even just a little bit.
I remember that period of time so fondly, where we were all working together and having fun. But when Cien needed space for mental health reasons, I felt hurt. And that's when I began not caring about legality or other people's feelings. It's such a stupid thing to reflect on now that I'm older and wiser. They weren't trying to hurt me, they were just going through some things.
But hindsight is 20-20. The reason I write this is because I want to send a message to everyone in the fandom: I am NOT coming back. I have moved on from Vocaloid. It is no longer part of my life. I wish I could say I was coming back under a new name or something, but I'm not. It no longer gives me joy, and that's my fault. All of these Vocaloid projects, like Vivi or some others have no involvement with me. I haven't been active in this community in years, and will never be again.
I want to say to everyone again, that I am sorry. I made mistakes. I fucked up royally. I was young, stupid. Under pressure to perform even when it might not be there, and I made an extremely dumb decision.
However, I would like to say I never plagiarized any music. I did purchase sample packs and use those extensively in my songs. Not very sportmanslike, but I never took any one else's music and claimed it as my own.
The reason I do this now is that as I get farther and farther away from Vocaloid and the things I've created and the decisions I've made, I realize that until I actually address what happened I will always feel guilty. This is a form of closure not just for me, but for everyone I hurt as well.
This is the only thing I will be posting on this Twitter. The password is being scrambled, and I will not be accessing it again. I want to thank everyone who was with me for helping Vocaloid become a huge part of my life, even if I did kind of ruin it near the end.
There is no more Planty-P. He is not making music anymore. He doesn't exist. He is gone. It is safe to pitch your own project, to start creating again. I messed things up. This is my way of trying to make things right.
So once more, from every part of me, I am sorry. I hope that all of you continue to enjoy Vocaloid for years to come and you can find it in your hearts to forgive.
Sincerely and with love: Planty