Meoowglie

Mowgli · @Meoowglie

13th Nov 2017 from TwitLonger

2017 Year


There is so much to say about this year. Let's start by its beginning. I will start to talk about team's journey before going on other important topics.

After dropping at Worlds with Team Secret, it was more than necessary to change the roster, we had too much issues that couldn't be solved with only time. Every members (Palmatoro / KValafar and me needed a fresh start). By his connexion to Fnatic players (TetnoJJ and Nettetoilette), Palmatoro joined them, and KValafar joined SKGaming (Jetpacks and Raph). It let me the only member of Team Secret remaining. After this year, I think no one have regrets to splited at this moment, everyone discovered new excellent team mates and had success on its own for a while.

During Winter break season, I was looking for fresh mates, and was playing with L3oN a lot online. I had a lot of suggestion but any of them appeared to me to be enought. When you played at the top for one year, you want the very best for your team. At this time, L3oN was playing a lot with Justman00 and Tr1cky and wanted to do a team with them. Knowing that I would be too hard to get 2 strong members in Team Secret, I offered the three boys to join TS as a full new main roster.

It meant I had to put myself back of the scene and start something new, coaching. It was probably the best move to do, since it would allow me to have multiple experiences in eSport's jobs. They started to play together and cOucOu and myself organized the first bootcamp for those guys. The bootcamp went super fine, it was crazy to meet the youngs and their energy, and I thank them all for this good moment we had together. We won so much as individual and team this week that we manage to put L3oN at 3000 ELO and the team almost middle of VG Bronze, that was a crazy performance. Scrim went all right, losing very few of them. We were ready for the spring season....

But, there is things in life you can never predict, specialy as a coach. You have to deal with it when it comes, and that's often for the worst. First weeks of Evil8, we were more than ready but Tr1cky left two weeks with his parents in vacation. Forcing me to play the two first weeks. It went all right cause I was still playing a lot at the game, and we managed to be second vs Cyclone at this time. But it affected the mood of the team, and Tr1cky debut got delay. And when you start late a competition, your opponents aren't waiting for you. The next week hurted us badly. We knew we were the best team, but Tr1cky was underperforming on lane, being full of stress. Still we managed to secure the 4th place.

The problem with all of this is that when you play with young people, they don't accept failure easily. L3oN have a very one sided mind over players. Or you win and you are worthy, or you lose and you are not. And Tr1cky failing on his job made him mad. He started to play with ImtheDoom more than with Tr1cky and Justman. After many discussions, we offred ImTheDoom to join TeamSecret roster. At this right moment, we planned to start a little competition in the team to claim the main roster spot for Live event.

Second Split went very fine, L3oN ImtheDoom Justman was a deadly combo (and still is ^^). We manage to win most of the week and almost steal the first place to G2, finishing one point behind them before the event. During this period, I really started to just put myself as analyst/coach than player. Sometimes it was hard to deal with the youngs' needs, they had a lot of feeling going throught them, for good or bad reasons. But still, we all managed to move on.

The Live event started with the worst condition ever. L3oN couldn't attempt cause of Papers, and ImTheDoom 's mother was against letting him go. We had several talks with SEMC about this issue, and they almost disqualified us, when ImTheDoom finaly realized that he still had a father who can come aswell.( Thx you daddy). Beside that, our performance ingame were very weak compare to what we could achieve. ImTheDoom was on a very bad period, mostly cause of EU style to never invade and play without risk, he was losing every jungle pressure. The team was mad at him, for good or bad reasons wasn't the problem, problem is you can't be mad at your team mates one day before going on stage...And so we started the series vs GS, first game went on them cause of the double heal tactic and incredible Xenotek agression. But right after, the two others games went for us and we could feel we were mecanicaly higher than them, euphoria was getting them, and they lost their focus on the 4th game, letting GS come back after such a dominating early game. It was very dissapointing for the entiere team to finaly drop the 5th game, we felt we could have make it easily into finals at least. The entiere team realised that with more effort and taking practice more seriously, they could have make it.

That's why we had a talk about summer season. And it was probably my first mistakes as Coach. I wanted my players to get back to work ASAP and show the best dedication they never had to the game. But that was too early, team needed a break, vacation, visiting friends etc...but I was mad at them for not willing to be the best right now. I decided to fire them, and recruit a mature roster, 18+. It was tought decision, I maybe regret certain aspect and how it happened, but it was for the good of everyone. I believe mouse eSport is what they are now cause of it. That made them realise you can't take a pause until you are at the top, and people have expectation on you. So the youngs join mouse except Tr1cky who decided to stay as a sub for Team Dynasty (Spring season was the last under Team Secret name, sadly...)

Rikumeza was doing a fantastic job for his Challenger team, and PTLam was back on the top of laners in this game. They both wanted to reach the top, had the time and necessary motivation to do it. We hired both of them in Dynasty Gaming. I started to put myself on the scene. If I have to resume the summer season : it's all about Work. We started with a weak roster, with no sinergy at all, but Rikumeza was playing almost 12h a day to be the best, I was sharing lot of practice time with him and we made a tons of scrims. We took zero break, and my entiere summer passed so quick. Despite all our effort, we knew that a certain limit was affecting us, canceling the chance of our team to be first, but we were doing our best to break it. We ended twice 4th place if my memory is good ^^. We tried to get a bootcamp during this season, but couldn't make it for multiples reasons...And so Lam's Visa got refused by Ukraine. He couldn't make it to USA with Riku and Me. So we had to take Tr1cky with us. And without any lie, it was for the best at this moment. I felt more confident playing with Tr1cky, cause he was on a real good shape since few weeks, destroying everyone on ladder.

But for some reasons, Tr1cky wasn't believing in our team anymore, due probably to the poor result in evil8 over the season. He had the worst attitude ever you can have toward team mates, ignoring us during the event, thinking it was already set. He was saying all over that Riku and Myself were too bad, even went to discredit myself on my whish to join NA team in futur. And then we went on stage, I forced myself to play the best Vainglory I can do. Shot calling everything, acting as leader and friend on every actions, win or lose. Cause you aren't three times Champions for no reason. I m clearly a different personn on stage than online, and for the best. I showed people my levels, and so Rikumeza did. We did our best first day, it went 3-1 over Qlash. We were still expecting it, the real problem was C9 after it. When we started to play vs them, Rikumeza and Tr1cky was almost sure it would be a blood bath. I think they are still today under shocked that we won first game. Beating your idols felt always like this, you can't believe it. But sadly, we couldn't make the feat three times in a row, and lost 3-1 to them. After the 1-1 score, Tr1cky went from a super exited kid happy to win to the silent boy who think it's over before triing. It sound harsh on him, but he realised it by himself after the event. We could have make it once more. That was possible. But if you don't believe in your team, you can't.

After this season, SKGaming proposed me to join them, and that's probably a decision I regret now( but unfortunaly, Humans have their ego), but I decided to keep Rikumeza and PTLam cause they showed lot of talents and I was impress by Riku performance on stage.Plus we were suposed to finaly get a bootcamp this time, but it failed once again. And then quickly we faced the same problem as summer season. An invisible wall was here, blocking us from reaching the best. We were doing fine in scrims, but always under performed on evil8 matches. At this right moment, I think I just did a burn out. No break since two years of Vainglory. I needed to think about my future. I decided to stop playing and tried to not be mad at my team mates, cause we tried. We tried our best, we put us on work for 5 Month, and I want to Thank them so much for that.

This year of Vainglory was still very cool, but in term of money, growth on social network, contact in eSport, it was shitty. There is no other words, EU scene is just bad, we have no visibility, no money to make players healthy. We are still waiting for spring cash price when it's November already. For myself, Vainglory was an entry door. A way to meet every eSport actors, enjoy all this passion with other people, build something together. But at the end, my stream contract got shut down, I started to lose as pro players so the money I made obviously decreased, my season as coach bring me zero credit and money, my caster application never had a reply. Plus my organisation failed to support me. No bootcamp, no stream contract, no sponsors, salary with delay, no support on social media. For all those reasons, my condition as pro players is not satisfiing anymore. So right now, I quit Vainglory except if a huge opportunity appear.

Doing the list of all the deception I ve got this year would be too long and counter productive. I think mistakes have been made from everyones (editors, players, organisation, myself) I just want to say Thank you for those two years, you made it possible. I will always remember those moments. Love you all.

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