100T jkaem · @jkaem
10th Aug 2017 from TwitLonger
Difficult situation
Hello everyone,
I have something to tell you all, its very serious for me and I writing it out like this to tell it to my real fans, my real friends in this community and people that cares about me.
For over a year ago I started to feel very depressed and the reason for that is a lot of different things. Alot comes from that I putted on alot of weight, didn't feel happy with myself, started to play bad, read comments about me having a alcohol problem.
I have been playing better lately, and it feels good tbh. I have missed it. Its not vs the best teams in the world, Its not on the biggest stage in the world. But need to take steps slowly to become a better and stable player!
I have been holding it as a secret for a very long time, my closest people in my life didnt know. I have been a terrible boyfriend and a bad father. I have been a bad person for the two most important people in my life. I've been a bad teammate from time to time. Been selfish, got really mad over nothing especially, and it hurts so much when you realize what you have done to people around you that you care so much about. Sadly it's hard to admit that you need help, to find yourself and get out of this shit!
I'll start work on my issues now to become a better person. The person I've always wanted to be. Become a person and a player people put their trust and look up to. Also to be a person that people like to be around. It's rough to feel like this, and I hope that this maybe help you if you are in a bad place yourself. Do something with it before It's to late.
I hope people understand me and my problems. I've finally opened up for the community and myself about my issues, so I hope you are not taking this the wrong way. It's not about attention, it is about helping the people out there with similar problems and for myself. This is going to be a long process for me. Long and hard. But I'll try my absolute best for my family and my team. I will show motivation and strenght, something I have not done lately.