yam · @Yaman
1st May 2017 from TwitLonger
So its been more than a few days.. I'm sorry!!
I know I said I was going to make a more detailed tweet with my reasoning's of leaving the Renegades CSGO team and my future plans, but it's taken much longer to do the latter, so that's why I haven't said anything. So I apologise to those people that have been waiting to hear from me!
Still to this date I'm not entirely sure of my future plans and what I want to do with my career exactly. I do think though the more and more time I spend not playing CS at the highest level, it makes me miss it and want it more and more. So I am sure that one day I will return to playing and I know that I still have what it takes to compete at that level.
There's many many many reasons as to why I left the team. I won't be going into detail explaining every reason why, but in the end it all just took waaaaaay too much of a tole on me physically and mentally. Living in another country on the other side of the world in a team house is really much harder than one might think. People really need to give credit to teams like SK/IMT/LG/WFX/anyone else that I'm forgetting, because until you do it you really won't know what it's like. For some people living in these types of environments is easy but for some its much harder.
On top of this was the never ending internal issues we had within the team. Like I stated above, I won't be going into deep detail or the specifics exactly, but essentially the team just wasn't improving or making any notable progress despite all efforts made.
It just felt like same shit different day. Issues would be spoken about and things that needed addressing would be fixed, but then one day, one week or even one month later we'd be back with the exact same issues and problems we had supposedly resolved. I had enough of going around in this never ending perpetual circle of problems that had such a large influence on our game which would never be fully resolved, especially as an IGL.
I really don't want to go into much more detail, but if people have questions that they'd like me to answer feel free to reply here. Know that I may or may not reply depending the type of question it is.
To those that are wondering if I'll be attending IEM Sydney or not, at the current time it looks like I won't be attending. Unless something changes and I can make it I'll be sure to let you know! :)