In Regards to the ANZ Finals / ANZ HotS in general

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The 'trolling' that happened in the ANZ finals is something I won't deny. A few months ago I was somebody with extreme passion to be the very best. I put in an extreme amount of effort inside of the game to practice my mechanics, I put in extreme amounts of effort to my team by watching replays/tournaments and still continuously trying to improve.I took on multiple roles on the team knowing that it was the only chance to even get a glimpse of first place. We even had an on-going coach from the competitive NA scene.

When things were looking bright and we were getting closer and closer to Reborn, the dream to contest first place was ended abruptly when 2 of my members john and Vanilla were approached by Reborn to play on their team. For me, I had just finalised our team playing for Disconcur's organisation "Masterminds" and finalised my streaming schedule. To have this all come crashing down was extremely hard for me to deal with. Penta, who had only joined our newly completed roster 2 weeks ago went back to Negative Synergy after hearing this, leaving iceboLd and I. To top it off, after Negative Synergy came back from Blizzcon, they were ready to disband with Benjamin94 leaving their team. When I approached him to play on a team with me, he ended up agreeing except that he wanted Ninja who was a free agent at the time. Although arguably the best player in the region, I decided that I'd rather play with Vanilla then have a higher chance of winning. Regardless of how the team would have turned out, it hurt to know that the person I fought for did not regard me as highly as I regarded him. For iceboLd, he told himself that he would not trust team members again which left us in the same boat.
I thought about recreating a roster and trying to contest the spot again, but too many questions arose.
Where was I going to find 3 new players that could be good enough to contest 1st?
How much harder would I have to work to get there?
Did I even want to play the game anymore?
Would I still have the drive?
Did I even want to challenge people who just left me for a higher chance of winning?
I came to the conclusion that I no longer wanted anything to do with competitive HotS but later decided to compete for 'free' money.

When I found out my old friend from LoL Fesh was playing, I immediately approached him to play with me but a problem arose. He wanted first place and I didn't. Although this was the case, I was the best chance he had to place highly so he agreed.I again made a roster that consisted of iceboLd, sharper, DeMiSe, Fesh and myself. Although doing quite well in scrims, DeMiSe had a different way of playing the game than me which made it less enjoyable. I left with Fesh to join Penta and Laharl which brings us to the current roster.

Penta, Laharl and I collectively agreed that we did not want to scrim Reborn and at the time I told myself that it was better for the team but now that I look back, I'm sure I subconsciously just had too much of a grudge against them.

With our completed roster, we scrimmed the 'teams' that were trying to reform and compete in the qualifiers. We stomped everyone in scrims and were feeling confident at how easy 2nd place would be. DeMiSe's team ended up disbanding, and Moops who I previously had extreme amounts of beef with came back. He immediately started shit talking me, so I responded and fired back. After a few more succesful scrims, we were notified by Penta that he was no longer able to play in the finals due to real life commitments so we asked iceboLd to play with us for the finals. This demotivated us more and we all ended up playing less just hoping to scrim. Following this, we heard that no team wanted to scrim us anymore which further demotivated the team. A few days before the tournament, Fesh also notified us that he no longer wanted to play due to selfish reasons, which lead to an argument regarding payment. After arguing between the team, we collectively agreed to forfeit from the tournament to take 4th place, but ESL responded and denied us access to the money if we were to surrender, thus leading us to play in a tournament, fully unprepared for with no team practice or individual practice.

After beating our first opponent, we moved on to DeMiSe's team who we lost to due to miscommunication and a throw after being ahead. DeMiSe's team responded by aggressively shit talking me. When we met them again in the Loser Bracket, we beat them with extreme ease and made 2nd place. As a team who only played for 4th place, beating Sashin and DeMiSe who tried so desperately to get 2nd place was an extremely good feeling for all of us.
In the last game of the finals (which we didn't want to play in the beginning), we decided that the best thing to do was to have fun and did not think about the negative response that occurred.

To those still reading, this is a public call out, an apology and a thank you before I peace out.

iceboLd - probably the most underrated person in the region. If I had to put someone as my best online friend it would definitely have to be you. You are blunt, always tell me things how it is regardless of how painful it is, you're loyal and you stuck with me to the end. After we disbanded, you told me how much you respected me and thanked me for everything and that honestly made me feel a lot better.
Pesky - thank you for always being there for me when I needed you. You always made me feel comfortable and I always enjoyed our cute duo dates :)
Penta - thank you for introducing me to HotS. I enjoy playing games in general with you, but you are still quite immature in a lot of aspects.
Laharl - extremely consistent player with an extremely obnoxious attitude. You are fun to play with but sometimes you drive me insane.
Vicarrak - In all honesty, I didn't like you from the start. You make the same mistakes consistently and you have an odd personality. You are good at heroes but not that good at the game, but your Rag ults were honestly so point when it counted in the ANZ Finals that I learnt to respect you.
kva - Coming back to HotS with a new role and playing that well is something I can really respect. I know you did not want to play the grand finals game that we trolled and I'd like to apologise for making you go through that.
Vanilla - Although you literally fucked me over, I don't blame you for doing it. I hope you do well in your future international events and find something you enjoy doing so you can settle nicely.
FAT94 - You're a cool cunt. I like how you can shit talk and still not be hated by everyone. I respect your mechanical skill and knowledge, and the fact that you whisper me a lot and are always friendly towards me.
Disconcur - Thank you for trying to help me through Reality's disband. Sorry for disappointing you in the Grand Finals.You're a good person.
Moops - Fuck you. You're shit at the game, everyone laughs at you for being a d5 retard and you're a clueless mutt.
Requshei - ♥
Scrublets - ♥
Angelbeats - ♥

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