Well today February 10th 2017 marks 1 year sober. Shit, that's crazy. The way I used to drink I doubted I'd even live this much longer. I've seen first hand what alcoholism can do to a person for almost 10 years. I'm glad I stopped and that I'm still here.

Anyone else dealing with alcoholism, get help, get support, go to meetings whatever you need to do. You can do all that stuff but only you can stop. You have to make the decision yourself. Do it before it's too late. Before you wake up to a decimated life in ruins, choking on ashes from all the bridges you've burned.

This is a very real addiction and very life threatening issue. Fix yourself. If I can do it literally anyone can. The damage isn't just to your own body and mind (Like most alcoholics think) but to the lives of everyone who cares about you. People who have to watch you destroy yourself. It's heartbreaking and horrible to put anyone thru.

You don't want experience heavy alcohol withdrawals and the DT's don't let yourself get to that point. I promise it is as bad, if not worse than they say it is. Not only will you hallucinate, sweat thru the damn mattress and not be able to hold down any food or water for days, it can kill you.

Think about that. Your body has become so dependent on a substance that without it your body can malfunction to the point of death. Lots of drug withdrawals are brutal but alcohol withdrawals can kill you. Come on, that is so gnarly. Please don't let yourself get there. Lily had to see me like that twice. I promised her I'd never do that again. Don't put your loved ones thru that. Please.

I'm not a sponsor or anything but if you need help and you ever feel like it's too much for you to handle, contact me. Send me a message or whatever and I'll see if I can help ya out.

I know AA and stuff isn't for everyone. The whole god part of it really puts me off. But it can help (Not the god part). Go into a meeting and see. You will be in a room full of people who suffer the same as you do. More people to talk to that understand. That have seen in an been thru it. If anything just to know that you aren't alone.

Alcohol and any substance addictions are awful, but you aren't alone. Remember that. If you want to stop you can. You need to before it's too late. Don't be selfish, and all woe is me. Get up and do something about it. Save your own life and the relationships you have. If any of them matter to you, you will be happy you did.

I'm sorry again to everyone I hurt and annoyed with all my drunken insanity of the past. I have more amends to make I'm sure. This has been a Hell of a journey. Thank you so god damn much to everyone who stuck by me and didn't give up on ol' Xander. Thanks everyone. 💪😈🤘

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