Ezekiel (Zeke) · @PrototypeMEM
12th Jan 2017 from TwitLonger
Break/retirement
As of today, I feel as if I need to pause from my perpetual competitive limbo. I've spent about 3 seasons trying to get back into the pro scene, but always seem to fall short, which is extremely disheartening. I want to say that I've consistently been in the top 2 majority of the am scene with multiple teammates, but for some reason I always get left out of contention for moving up. It really blows because in my opinion I am an enabler of good Halo; I do my job and everyone around me looks really good, but I just never stand out. I'm always on the winning side of these teams so it feels like the only way to make pro is to do it with amateur teammates who, after watching and playing with, don't seem to have the skill, experience, or consistency to be at the top. Since halo 5 has came out I've always struggled to get teammates, even had to scavenge to get top 3 in the very first online tourney with people who had never been heard of before. I'm not saying I carried or anything, I'm just stating that the odds have constantly been stacked against me and I've somehow pulled it off, even LAN events getting 5/6th, so clearly I'm doing something right. I'm not saying I deserve a shot or anything because no one deserves anything handed to them. I just feel like as of right now, every single one of my teammates or past teammates etc have gotten offers from pro teams to at least run, and I've gotten 0 offers in the last 3 seasons. I've reached out to majority of players and it's either no response or "we can run if we have no other options". So I feel like I am sitting here with a talent pool that is constantly dropping, obviously making it harder to be successful in the am scene. So I'm going to take a breather and put finding a successful and competitive team on hold. Yes, I understand that this is the biggest event halo has, but I cannot find a team that I am confident can qualify. I'll be playing and running games to see if there is potential somewhere. However, as of right now, the likelihood that I'll find the right teammates or get a pro offer seems slim to none. I am NOT quitting, since I will be around (playing, streaming, and all that stuff) but team related halo will be on pause.
In the last season Halo has taken something away from me that I will never get back because of it, ultimately it was my fault for letting it completely ruin me. I've been contemplating it for a long time and after this traumatic experience I feel this is necessary to never have something happen like this again. To those still competing, good luck and I guess I'll see you when I see ya 👋🏽