Alright, so what the hell happened?
Long story short, I wasn't happy being on the team. There's a lot of things that added up to that but unfortunately most of that will have to remain private.
I can say that I never had any issues with EnVyUs management, they were awesome to play for and I really felt like part of a team. I'm glad I could be a part of their expansion into OW and really wish them all the best. They go above and beyond to make sure their players are happy and anyone playing for them is lucky to be there. I also still consider my past teammates friends and will miss playing with most of them.
I will not be quitting Overwatch. For now I'll be streaming more often and seeing what opportunities arise while taking a small break since starting to grind the game over a year ago back in closed beta.
I am not opposed to joining another team but I am also not in a rush.
If I had to offer up a (vague) explanation for leaving it would be that I felt like the effort I put into the team wasn't being matched by certain people. For example, it was very difficult staying motivated when you're sitting there for hours going over maps and strategy and you realize you've been talking to yourself and maybe one or two others chiming in occasionally while everyone else is "listening". I also had some issues with a some irresponsible behavior that happened fairly often but I won't go into that. Needless to say, traveling 5k miles to stay in another country for weeks while dealing with issues like these on a daily basis can lead to being burned out twice as fast and it got to the point where it felt like it wouldn't change and I had to make a decision for myself. Maybe it was unrealistic for me to expect every player to match my level of effort but at this level of competition I felt like it was what we needed to do and we weren't. As I said before there were a lot of other things that added up to this decision but this was the heart of it.
I didn't step down because we were losing to a couple teams or anything like that, dealing with losses is part of the job. Honestly, even during our slump we were still doing very well in the grand scheme of things. And I absolutely did treat this as a job and, while you don't need to like the people you work with, you need to feel like everyone is doing their part. To be honest, in their own way, I believe most of the team was doing what they considered to be their best way of improving and handling practice, but I guess I just had a different mindset of what that should be. So in the end I didn't feel like I belonged and would be happier stepping down.
Just some ending thoughts here about my teammates:
Harryhook is an awesome person to have on a team, he is always ready to win and one of the most reliable people I've played with.
Chipshajen is honestly one of the nicest people I've ever known, he never has anything bad to say about anybody. I couldn't ask for a better support to have my back.
Cocco is always trying his best, whether it be in the middle of a game or during a strategy session you can always rely on him to be there and share his opinion.
Hulk has a great overall game sense and was my main sounding board for strategy ideas and discussions, he gets a lot of flack for not be the most mechanically skilled but he does everything he can to make up for it.
Taimou... has good aim.
A special shoutout to Mike (hastro) for giving me this opportunity to show the world what I got and to Tazmo and Cory who made our trips all the more stress free and entertaining.
Thanks everybody for all the support! I am reading all of your comments and really appreciate it. I hope you all continue to have my back as I'm not done yet.
Ronnie "Talespin" DuPree Jr.