Fergie (Crowley) · @BlackEyedQueen
22nd Oct 2016 from TwitLonger
Until We Meet Again
Trigger warning | Fergie verse not queen | lyrics: Boondox - Cemetery
Abandoned. Lost. Dazed and confused.
🎶See the leaves falling to the ground
See them falling all around
On the cemetary mound🎶
Ever since that day. Time has passed and I have never been the same. My heart breaks, if I had a soul it would be tattered. Pieces falling through broken glass, broken dreams. Never easy for a demon to feel but with you I did.
🎶Teardrops on my notepad
Dope sick feels so bad
Everything seems so fucked up
I'm about to go mad🎶
You were my everything. Even the countless bodies that drop, the endless souls collected can not ease this pain I feel. When a heart doesn't beat can it feel? Can the damned mourn?
I say we do. I say I am. Even laying here needle in arm searching for the need to feel something even for a while. It has become my addiction. The need to drown myself in pure bliss to escape the sorrow and tears filling my immortal torment.
🎶My life tried to live right
This night hope will end right
Hell's doors open wide
Inside here's your invite
One breath should I use it?
Life/Death should I choose it?
Legacy, life of me
Hear my voice in this music🎶
With eternal joy comes eternal pain. My brother sits on a throne, my mother enjoying the sights seeking her wretched revenge on a journey that never ends. Both truely never satisfied while I cast aside. I don't want to feel this. I don't want to hear it. All the excuses, all the pain. I can barely remember the sound of your voice, the smell of your cologne, the small things that annoyed. One more day. Was it too much to ask?
🎶Phone calls to a few peeps
No promises to keep
Close my eyes kiss the sky
And Then just go to sleep
So long tried to hold on
So long tried to stay strong
Everything that I know and grow
Now seems long gone🎶
Now laying here needle in my arm, bodies on the floor. Never wanting to let go. Never wanting to say goodbye. I wallow in self loathe, self doubt. I should have protected you. I should have been there but you knew I wouldn't. I am wasn't soul bound to this world as you. Just for a moment I can pretend that it doesn't exist. That this pain is not real. That I am more than a lowely cross roads demon with no sense of direction. Are you proud now? Does my guilt fill your eternal damnation with pleasure?
🎶No more hearing "I should try"
No more wishing I would die
Close my eyes, let it go
And leave you with "Goodbye"🎶
Fuck it. Let it begin. Dreams of eternal goodbyes.
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