Lily Anne · @nightdessert
5th Aug 2016 from TwitLonger
Here is my English translation of いいや / 118 by DECO*27 based on Piniako's Polish translation that you may find here: https://youtu.be/602Nj7BV8uY
You can tell me it's just a joke, but it has already touched me
I cannot see that you feel guilty and I am simply upset
My iron heart has melted away; I want to die.
I am forcing love down my throat
Whenever you say "I love you" I begin hating you
Because you clumsily depend on me
I cannot laugh at the happiness that is hidden for me somewhere
and how for different reasons we decided to walk on the same path
Oh no, maybe I actually can
Shaking my head I ask "What should I do?"
I want to hide poison amongst the spices
"What am I supposed to do with myself after such a long time?"
No, no, because it hurts, it hurts
I don't care about what will happen anymore
I don't care about anything anymore
I am lamenting, lamenting over the days in which I made this decision
You know that the reason for why I was trying was actually a lie, right?
I am struggling, I am struggling with the today that is already gone
You can say that I am also guilty as I think "so be it"
You can no longer imagine me happy like in the past, right?
By the way, what do you think about ending this?
Could you please consider it seriously?
I have already turned my back on you
but I am sorry, this is how it must be, farewell
I don't care about what will it be like anymore
I don't care about anything anymore
The days during which I made this decision cannot be changed, cannot be changed
You know that the reason for why I was trying was just an excuse, right?
I got scared, I cannot do this anymore. I am falling apart, I am falling apart
I can no longer give you a pinkie promise
I am sorry but I can't. My dreams are jumbled up
I can no longer give you a hand to hit
I am sorry but I can't no matter what
I cannot call for help because you filled my throat with your saliva
I don't care about what will happen anymore
I don't care about anything anymore
I am lamenting, lamenting over the days in which I made this decision
You know that the reason for why I was trying was actually a lie, right?
I am struggling, I am struggling with the today that is already gone
I don't care about what will it be like anymore
I don't care about anything anymore
The days during which I made this decision cannot be changed, cannot be changed
You know that the reason for why I was trying was just an excuse, right?
I got scared, I cannot do this anymore. I am falling apart, I am falling apart