"So much destroyed for so little"
First of all, I am deeply sorry for what i have done... I'm sorry for letting down all the people that have trusted and supported me all this years. I participated in matchfixing, my actions were completely wrong and i fully understand and acknowledge Valve's veredict and decision regarding this matter.
There is no other way to put it: i cheated, and for that there is not a single second i am not feeling totally devastated and regretful for it.
I dont deserve anyones pity, i know the consequenses of my actions and while i will respect Valve's final words on the matter i feel like i need to try and seek for the very last beam of hope to redeem myself.
I want to keep playing, Dota is a fundamental part of my life, of who i am, and i want to keep improving and developing both my skills and my life.
The whole Dota 2 competitive scene is still young in a lot of aspects, a punishment for my actions is due and i will accept it, but i hope both community and Valve undestands what its to be a guy pursuing his dream, trying to be a profesional gamer for a living and making mistakes in the road.
As a closing thought i hope to be able to have one last conversation to Valve, as i said before, i will take full responsability for my actions.
- Jesus "Ztok" Carhuaricra Soria.