Tyler Ganza | eUnited · @Spartan
31st Jan 2016 from TwitLonger
Why I'll be MIA for a few days
As most of you know I suffer from depression and anxiety. I do my best every day to just put a smile on my face and ignore it. I take medication for it ( as I've said before ) that helps tremendously, but it only does so much.
Halo is my escape. Competing is my escape. It helps. But it also comes with it's burdens.
I put just as much time if not more into Halo than anyone that plays the game. I am not in this for the money. Being able to live off of it is absolutely amazing don't get me wrong. But I am in it for the trophies. The medals.
Going into X-Games I was convinced we would come home with a medal. We came in hot Thursday and after that I was extremely convinced we could do it. The rest of the weekend we were a different team.
It was an honor being invited to X-Games. I'm blessed to have been invited. Another positive is that 4th is my highest placing in my 3 years of competing.
I've lost in tournaments before obviously, but losing takes a toll on my depression. Like I stated before, Halo ( for right now. I plan on attending college afterwards ) is pretty much all I do. So putting in so much hard work and effort, to be one match away from a medal was pretty heartbreaking and the hardest loss I've had to handle.
I am excited for the future of RNG. I feel we have what it takes ( with A LOT of practice ) to place higher than fourth.
This will be my only tweet for a few days as I take some time to just go over my thoughts and sort things out. I will however be streaming and practicing with the team. I love you all and thank you to those who support and understand.