Joey · @fxy0CS
7th Jan 2016 from TwitLonger
I don't understand ..
I don't understand.
When i've accepted my one year ban, Valve certified that my case would be reviewed in 2016 and a good conduct was appropriate.
I would like to be clear from the start, I do not contest what i have done but I am judged in the same for 100€ earned and 100'000$. Yes I am judged, banned for life, while no rules were in place.
I would have preferred to pay a 200% penalty to maintain my professionnal status.
Why should I wait a year to be ban for life. Did Valve actually take a year to decide ? I don't think, especially when penalties are the same regardless the situation or gains.
Not a long time ago, a judged asked for Karabatic ( famous French handballer ) a 10'000€ penalty and a three years probation when they've found a bet on a handball match. Did they give him a lifeban, kicked him from his club, his national team or even banned him from any high-level sport ? Not really.
We all hope that eSport will grow, so yes such behavior is intolerable but Valve can not be the judge and the jury. Especially when the decision is thoughtless. A non moral act commited in an emerging era which hasn't, in any wayn contradict the previously established rules must be questioned but can't be legally punished.
Do a premeditated murder lead to the same penalty as a self defense ? Death is the same for both case but everything depends on the given situation and what's around it.
If I go to the supermarket to steal a lollipop, I would not risk the same as a bank robbery right ?
The worst is that there was not even a debate, I didn't have the opportunity to explain my self during my ban. Even at the beginning of this year when my case was suppose to be reviewed, nobody from Valve contacted me.
I didn't say a word when they banned me for a year, after a 100€ earned via some skins. I've found this punishment correct and the act was intolerable but a few realize what a year is in a professional player's life who stacked everything on the eSport's dream.
It was a career mistake. It destroys all my years of investment in the eSsport. All these years, training hard to be able to compete with the best. All these years I played every game and I gave everythingg with honor, with only one desire, i didn't want to disapoint the community. All those years swept away in a second, is this fair ?
But I believe that I should have a second chance, especially in the current environement where EVERY organizers follow Valve's words. We are not talking about 4 majors only but every big events and my professionnal player's status.
Who can look me in the eye and tell me that he never did anything wrong ? I repeat, even murder do not cause perpetuity. Redemption is a reality, however powerful people decided to be our judge and jury, a revolution in the democracy's history !
I only ask a thing to Valve, do not judge me like a name among others. I would like to be judge compared to my actions and not in a lot, especially after my one year ban and no fault from myself.
To every organizers, I really think this sentence of one year is enough and I guess you do aswell. I do not know if you have to blindly follow what Valve says, but I assure you, I'm ready to give everything even if I should be suspended for any misconduct, I'm ready to accept it.
And you players, who love eSports, I can only ask for your support, whetever you are pro or would like to become one, WE are the first affected and I hope that, like me, you find my spell unfair.
Have a good night everyone, sorry for my english, it was quite difficult to translate everything. I just hope you'll all understand what i tried to explain here. xoxo