EG_PPMD

Kevin Nanney · @EG_PPMD

9th Nov 2015 from TwitLonger

This tweet is meant to address my tournament absences as well as my weak level of play when I am at events. I am always afraid to talk about these things because it can feel disrespectful or people will get upset that I'm not in good shape. Really I just don't like admitting weakness. It's a flaw that I hope this tweet will help me overcome. I know people can be really understanding if I reach out and speak appropriately, and tafo and some of my Twitter followers really wanted me to explain this so I feel people would be empathetic to what I will say.

I will say that the main issue keeping me from improving and competing all of the time is my body. My depression is either mostly or entirely cleared at this point and I REALLY hope to overcome my physical fatigue so I can stream/play/compete more soon. A quick history of what has been going on with me is in order. I was sick for 4 months this year, from March to July. In that time I felt like I had a really bad cold or the flu with symptoms like fever and stuffiness, with the primary problem being fatigue. I also experienced something odd: my hands and legs would cramp up terribly under any effort. This meant exercise and smash practice were impossible. Eventually, I did figure out how to meditate and sleep well enough to reduce sickness as well as eliminate hand pain but I still feel strangely fatigued all of the time(less now than before but still a lot). I do not know how to fix this. I have tried doing the bit of exercise I can do as well as different sleep schedules or just as much sleep as possible a night. Sleep is what has helped the best but it seems I am very far from a solution that can get me faster results.

I'm thinking I'm missing something. Or just not sleeping enough regularly enough. I don't know. I'm hoping that readers will understand that the solution is to not exhaust myself going to tournaments and play more, since I need to get my energy back or I'll just burn out quickly. I LOVE melee and want to play it a lot but can't because of how I feel. I stayed out of tournaments to fix my fatigue and it has helped but it's just too slow so far. That said, if anyone reading this has any solutions or experienced this issue PLEASE tell me because I don't want to wait any longer to play the game I love with the community I love.

Thank you for reading this tweet. I hope I have decently explained what's going on with me and why I have done what I've done. It makes me nervous to put this out there but I trust people to be empathetic towards me. Also, if I structured some things poorly it's just because I couldn't focus too well to organize my thoughts. Anyway, I'm kind of rambling now so I'll just say thanks again and I'll be doing all I can to return to the game better than ever =)

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