I hate deleting tweets. It gives people the wrong idea that I might be back tracking. CC: @MyNameIsMachine
I'm small potatoes and didn't think anything I said, right or wrong, would ever cause a stir. It's a rather uncomfortable position to be in. I was wrong. Maybe not for what I said, but for saying anything at all.
First, I feel the need to apologize to the CS community. It's likely going to be perceived as disingenuous. How many times has someone fucked up and apologized just to satiate the wrath of a community? I never want to be that person.
I am sorry, though (and if any of this sounds like bogus PR, I'm sorry for that as well). I'm not apologizing because I woke up at 4 AM to let my dog out and instead of going back to sleep I started a shit storm. I'm sorry that people think I was seeking attention by making a bold claim. My tweet was supposed to be anecdotal to the discussion about cheating in eSports and the recent revelations about PRIME - one player made a comment about match fixing in CS, I was stating that there is an issue I believe is far worse than match fixing. I have no ax to grind with players, teams, organizers, etc. and I'm not looking to get big/gain attention by saying stupid shit on twitter. For those who feel I was attacking CS, I wasn't.
To touch on the attention seeking comments - I may not have all my wits about me, but I do have self-respect. I have never, and will never, seek attention by being the dick head who says dumb, inflammatory shit on twitter. I see why they do it - I have had a bump in followers and now a lot more people know my name than three hours ago. That's not the attention I want. There are enough idiots in eSports who make a living off their stupidity and it's not a niche I want to try and fit into.
My thoughts on CS:GO and Cheating
Pro players have been banned for using very sophisticated cheats. Now you have majors taking steps to ensure peripherals and other possible methods for cheating are inspected and monitored. Either they're paranoid and doing unnecessary work, or it's because they know people still find ways to cheat at high-level events. Aside from protecting their business and the integrity of the game, they're on alert because whispers spread. I've been around eSports long enough to hear things said behind closed door. Most of the time I would hear something and say "Bullshit, there's no way that's true" until it comes out in an article a few months later. Lately, I've stopped calling bullshit as much as I used to and instead started trusting people who are right more often than not.
Now that this is on CS:GO reddit and blowing up, I'm really not sure how to go from here, so I'll keep the rest simple:
1. Not every LAN checks peripherals.
2. If history serves as a lesson, hackers in any industry are constantly working to make their software undetectable and bypass current security measures. Checking peripherals won't always prevent cheating.
3. My words were too hyperbolic. Though, if 3 pro players attending a LAN use cheats, that (to me) is "a lot of players at a high level."
4. I swear that I thought this was a common sentiment. I didn't realize it was a hot button issue.
5. (Another PR sounding statement) If I had evidence, I'd release it. One of my biggest attractions to CS is the history of the game - match fixing, hacking, etc. are all detrimental to the game's future. Unfortunately, I have nothing but the word of people I trust. Hindsight being 20/20, I wish I hadn't said anything (I shouldn't have said anything).
6. I enjoy CS:GO. One might say we've been dating for a while and I'm starting to fall in love. Now I feel like I told my buddies about our bedroom conversations, she found out, and we're currently not speaking. I know we're going to have a few awkward dinners ahead, but I hope she knows I didn't mean to upset her.