Going on Hiatus
I apologize if this seems over-dramatic, but I just want people to know what's going on.
Lately I've been having a general feeling of uncaring and resentment towards my own stream, and it's those feelings that have caused me to decide to go on a hiatus.
My feelings of uncaring are stemming from a lack of variety, in opponents, in my own play schedule/routine, in skill level, in ways the stream turns out night to night, and in my own inability to be as consistent as I want to. Some of this is definitely my fault, and I've definitely had a few critics (about my streaming times especially), but I feel there's more to it than that.
My feelings of resentment are simply at where my stream is at in terms of growth, as well as the game itself. I want both to thrive, but sometimes it feels as if I'm not moving any of that forward. I 100% feel I haven't always had realistic expectations in terms of where the stream was headed, but it's just not always the most exciting to never see fresh faces, or sometimes anyone at all, no matter how exciting an opponent I find is.
As for @SpyParty as a whole, it's hard to judge its growth as it waxes and wanes with each new articles, video, and stream from people with serious amounts of influence. I want the game to succeed, but sometimes the lobby still feels lonesome, or like I can't just chill there because people don't do that as often as they used to.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not done producing content, whether it's writing for @spypartyfans or posting on this account, I just want to let you guys and gals know that, however much it pains me to type it, I won't be streaming for a bit. I can't say how long, but feel free to ask about it if you have any questions or just want to stop by and chat.