not that rachel · @srayface
23rd Nov 2014 from TwitLonger
I AM that sorry, and I want to fix my mistakes.
my birthday is december 3rd and my birthday present for myself is (finally) $100 donated to RAINN in honor of the women who’ve received harassment as a result of tzp and gg8, as well as the men and women who are survivors who've talked to me since the medium post went up.
I fucked up a lot of things since the summer, and “I was trying to help” doesn’t excuse the fact that I have hurt my friends, damaged the trust of people I respect and care about, and aided the creation of this vitriolic non-dialogue that is the publicly visible state of gg8. I cannot apologize enough for my naivete, assumptions, and callousness, and I think I’ve revoked my right to seek out the people who’ve cut contact. I’m deeply sorry for my contributions to the atmosphere that’s harmed so many people, whether my personal friends or the devs and journalists who’ve been attacked.
it seems - to me, right now & since I posted that medium article - that the best I can do for women, survivors, and the internet at large involves:
-shutting up about gg8 (this movement isn't mine; it's yours, g8rs.)
-providing financial support to a group that is way better equipped to help abuse survivors than me
my finances are a bit tight, and I’d be giving more if I could. if you want to help me celebrate my 26th birthday (7 years free from abuser and a full year into something like recovery) and you have the cash to spare, would you also consider donating?
thank you, everybody who’s put up with me flailing since mid-august, and again, I am so sorry for the harm I’ve caused. I want to do whatever I can to fix it.