@Harry_Styles

Hello Haz,

This is the umpteenth time that I write to you, I write millions of tweets a day, but you don’t ever answer me and I can understand , who knows how many tweets you receive!?
I had already tweeted this TwitLonger to you, but after almost 34 thousand tweets, twitter has deleted it, I don’t know why, and so I had to rewrite it and I continued from where I left.
I know that maybe you’ll not read this, but in the end I hope that your eyes fall on my nickname, because I want to tell you so many things that are important to me, I want you to know, though perhaps you’ll take me for stupid or maybe you've heard these words thousands of times ...
It 's strange, you know? I find it hard to write something this time. Usually I sit around and I almost automatic, jot everything down in a short time, and yet now I find it difficult.
There are so many things I want to tell you ...
Let's start with thanks, here is. Thank you. Thank you for coming into my life and have become my idol, my world, with the boys.
Thanks for all the times that you tear a smile even when smiling is the last thing I would do, because I just look at you or think of you and all is well. You're a bit like the sun after a storm.
Thank you simply because you make me feel good.
Thank you for all the time that you help me,that you give me strength, even if you don’t know.
Maybe my heart isn’t really agree, but thanks for all the times that you do it beat so strong,that it appears to be bursting at the seams.
Yeah, because you don’t know what you triggers me. You are a hurricane of emotions, you're the reason of my spontaneous smiles, perhaps the most beautiful, you're that name that I write on the school desk, on the books,on the diary, you're my heaven, you're the most beautiful thing that exists, that I've ever seen, the most important thing I have, you're my constant thought, my weak point, the best part of me, everything I need, everything that makes me happy and sometimes even little sad at the same time, you're that famous first love, the one that happens only once in the life, which deals with anything and that makes feel alive, you're the reason why I feel, other than butterflies, the whole zoo in my stomach when I look at you. Nobody knows how important you are to me, and maybe even you will understand: who knows how many times have you heard "I love you" by fans ... but I've never told anyone, I've never felt anything like this to anyone not for you and you don’t know how much fear I have, how much anxiety, as I write, because I am afraid of appearing trivial, stupid, in your eyes.
I love you. Believe me, I beg you. I love you in the most pure and simple way. I love you like Pooh loves honey, I love you like Bugs loves carrots, I love you like Scrat loves his acorn, I love you like Spongebob loves the krabby pattys, I love you like Shrek loves Fiona, as Juliet loves Romeo. I love you more than pizza, more than nutella, more than McDonald's sandwiches, more than my bed, more than silence, more than Sparks’s books, more than music.
I love everything about you, every single thing.
I love your voice, I love it so much, it relaxes me, or turns me on, or ... I don’t know, it makes me a strange feeling, sometimes I can only say "oh god" with the air of a girl who is going to be melt (?) and a smile on my face, sometimes I close my eyes as if I wanted to catch every sound and then recall it to mind from time to time just for the pleasure of hearing my stomach do somersaults.
I love the way you are, love your kindness, your tenderness, your personality, your being patient and considerate.
I love your smile, your laugh, it's the most beautiful thing there is, illuminates the world, whatever. And I love your dimples, they are so sweet.
I love your curls, you don’t know what I would give to be able to weave them between my fingers.
I love your gorgeous green eyes, I lose myself every time I look at them.
I love your big hands: they send me strength, protection and security. How I tighten them alone for a while.
I love your tattoos, all, I love them, I love how they are on your body.
I don’t know you at all, it is true, but I'm sure I would be able to love even the side of you that don’t know because you're perfect in my eyes. You make perfect every imperfection.
It's nice to have you in life, and it must be even more nice to have you around every day.
You don’t know how many times I want to be with you, or you're with me, or that we are together in any place. I wish I could be near you in good times and especially in those "no" to help you as you do with me, I wish I could talk to you for hours and hours, I would give anything to be able to spend a day with you, or even a few minutes. I wish I could hold you: oh, how I would hug you, hold you, my head on your chest, your hands on my back, feel the beating of your heart, your every breath, feel protected, safe, somehow loved, cry for all what is wrong and leave you to reassure me. God only knows how many times I've cried and I still do, imagining our embrace that perhaps will never come.
Sometimes I wish I could be invisible to always gotta be near you and watch you live.
How much I miss you Haz. I've never seen you except behind a pc screen or tv, but I miss you how can miss the air. I see you when I close my eyes, I've got your face fixed in my mind, I look for you everywhere but are never there and then I write tweets to you try to feel closer to you.
I often look at you and I feel like crying but not because you make me sad, on the contrary, you remind me that you're the most beautiful thing that life could give me.
I know this may sound silly, but believe me I don’t even know why it happened, why it happens. I just know that you came quietly into my life, you took my heart, my thoughts, my dreams, you’ve messed up everything and made all wonderfully beautiful.
It 's hard to explain, I have never been in a situation like this before, and it's nice but it hurts.
I love you. I love you more of the thinkable, more of the speakable, more than I should, more than I expected to be able to love, more than a human being has ever loved another human being, I love you like it do only once in the life, I love you like I've never done and how I never will. I love you so much that all the words in the world would not be enough to explain it.
I don’t want someone else to take your place, I will not forget any of this, I want that you continue to be part of me forever, I would like to look at you 20 years from now and feel the same beautiful, strong emotions I feel now.
Loving you is the most beautiful thing and I don’t regret falling in love more each time, nor will I ever, in spite of everything. You are the most beautiful thing, and I swear that I will love you so much, in my own way, from afar, forever, no matter what happens.
Oh god, I'm crying like a fool, I knew.
Excuse me, sorry if I have seemed stupid, I'm sorry for having taken you time. I wanted you to know these things.
I wish you all that there is more beautiful because you are a wonderful person and you deserve it.
Thank you for reading, thank you for your time, thank you for existing.

I love you, Harold.

-Chiara

p.s I'm sorry if I wrote something in the wrong way, my english is not perfect ... I'm Italian

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