Kizár Elená Durin · @SilmarilNaro
6th Aug 2014 from TwitLonger
RB-verse - Dreams of Grey
Kizár's eyes fluttered open and she took a moment to remind her of where she was. The Deep Stone, she quickly remembered, as her eyes set on Kíli, who was asleep with an arm curled around the Skystone. Kizár moved to reach out and touch him, but the move was hampered by a weight around her - Anvari's arm, she quickly realised. He was asleep, though the simple fact of him being there was soothing, especially after her dreams,
They were strange dreams that she would suspect to be of yet another of her lives, if not for how strange they were. Everything in those vague and unclear images seemed to indicate somewhere that was not Middle-Earth - not even *Arda*.
One image from the dream stuck in her mind, an image of her reaching into a large stone container, filled with ash, and pulling out... her sister. She instinctively knew it had to be Lossanárë, it was simply instinct, or spiritual senses, that told her as much. Why Lossanárë would be hidden in an urn full of ash she did not understand though.
The whole thing made her all the more sad, being able to find the sister who was out of her reach like that would be a dream come true for her, but she only had to visit the surface at bight to know it would never happen.
Kizár moved to wrap her fingers in Anvari's. At least here she had her beloved, her dark protector, her soulmate. That dream-life she did not have that, and she could feel it, that despite friends, and even loved ones, even with her *sisters*, she was alone.
Struggling to turn over, she could feel Anvari stirring slightly as she moved, but once she was resettled his arm tightened around her again. She snuggled in, gently burrowing into his mind, letting his tiredness draw her towards sleep.
This life is better, she thought, even without Lossanárë close. This life she had Anvari, and Kíli, and all their family as well. This life did not feel so grim, though if somewhere out there, another of her lives had to live that hard lonely life... she could only hope her other self would eventually find something to ward of that loneliness she felt.