Hello !!! I know I do not post things very often & I am sry for that. Just wanted 2 update you I guess. I have probably expressed this before but oh well !!! it is almost impossible at this point for me to release something to the world unless it is perfect, or nearly perfect to me. If not, I feel there is no point. This takes alot of time and obsession and compulsion and things of that matter. ANYWAYS. In clearer terms, I am working on many different projects all at once, but since I want to be careful and satisfied with each one, nobody rly sees them, so I feel like I am not doing anything at all. That makes me more stressed and nervous and builds up so much !!! However, when I post stuff frequently, I end up not being proud of it and it's even worse, like a neverending cycle. I do not think I will ever make weekly youtube videos or anything like that because it just ends up forced and mediocre and not worthwhile....even if that is an easier way for 'internet success'. Sooooo I just hope anyone that supports me or cares about what I do is understanding of that. Most good things take time and erasing and starting over until u find what is right. Just like life or something. Sometimes u can also just make brilliant art masterpieces in the moment too who knows. But yes. Rambling a bit now. Thank you if you are reading this and u continue to offer support, it really means alot, as I generally just like to share my ideas with ppl that are interested in listening or seeing. There is no separation, u are probably better and more capable than I am tbh. Ya just gotta try, thats the only difference. Don't idolize anyone in a way that makes u feel below them, just find inspiration in other people to pursue ur own goals. Do not feel like u have to beg people to follow you or interact with you online, like they are worth more than you. Talk to people as equals and dont hide the interesting & unique aspects of yourself. Anyone that genuinely appreciates you and makes an effort to have a conversation or reply is who will be worth ur time. Ur life is bigger than some band member or whoever. U can find heroes to make u happier, but dont forget there is also an entire earth out there. The internet is bad if u focus on it too much. I promise there are amazing people around you that would love to be your friend. WELP. Yes luckily everything I am working on will be done around the same general time...like August to October so that is good !!! Even some surprises. Thank you so much again seriously if you care !!! It is nice to have patient people to talk to and connect with. I know I am not really a "youtuber" like in the past nor do I want to be, but I am just here on the web wanting to make something beautiful while the opportunity exists & also just to help ppl and have a good impact on the world. For those who enjoy, that is great & if not, that is ok too. Even when feeling depressed and awful alot, spreading a positive mindset & encouraging others is very important. Just seems like the right thing to do. U make mistakes and self realize and get better. I have had alot of iced coffee it is so good. Alright better stop this now. Hope you are doing well. What in th e hekc

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