So yeah,Liam,i know it's immposible for you to see this but i will try,i will try because i love you.
I have done a twitlonger before but you know what?My feelings for you grow day by day.When you love someone your love gets stronger and stronger,that's how it feels i'm sure i know the feeling.
When i first became a directioner i never really thought that just a little boy from Wolverhampton would be my whole freaking life.I loved your hair,your curly hair my favourite one.It's so weird to see you growing and change,from outside,but i'm still happy after all.I still cannot believe that from UAN we went to TMH and from TMH to WWA and i'm happy i had the change to be with you and and the boys all this time.
It's really stupid to think that one day you will notice me.I know this day will never come and it hurts so bad.But even in that way i could be happy if i see you smiling.All i want is your hug,just a hug,i really need your arms to hold me tight.I want you,with your flaws or not,i just want you.I need your hug so every time i'll think of it i'll smile and i'll stop crying cause that's what i do the most of my time.I can cry and be sad and depresed all day,there are times i laugh but that still doesn't help.Your not the only reason i cry ,there are many other reasons.My parents,who always yell at me and tell me what to do.We fight almost every day.My sister,who tells things about me and i don't really know why.My friends,who dont give a shit about me like i don't really exist.The school,all tose home works and that i have to do to have an A.I still have people they care about me and that's beacause af you and the boys.I have found friends who love me and i love them too.Friends i have found while i became a directioner.How greatful can i be for that?You know sometimes i imagine you,when i'm crying,hugging me and telling me that everything are gonna be alright and that i don't have to worry.
An 'I love you' is just to little for the feelings i have for you.It hurts so much to see you with an other women but i'm trying to work on that because i can see how happy you are.Is just the jealusy i have,but that's natural right?
Every morning i open my computer and i go to twitter to spam you,to see if you've wrote any tweet and of course to see if your ok(from updates etc).I see photos of you,at concert,with fans,with friends and when i see your smile and see how happy you are,i smile too.Is just the love i have for you,and it makes me cry and smile at the same time.
Every time i think about you my heart goes crazy and i cant breath well.Even in the thought I could be into your arms,just for a second,or touch your lips drives me insane.I really can't tell your my lifasaver because you have done more than just save my life.
People always say to me "Why him?","Why do you love him so much","He doesnt even know you" and i expain to them how much you really mean to me and that i just cn't stop loving you.You have the most precious and lovely smile.When you close your eyes and smile so bright.It's the most beautiful smile I've ever seen.I love everything about you,every flawless little thing.Your smile as i said,your eyes,your beautiful brown eyes.Your accent your beautiful british accent,your body,everything about you.
When they tell me to think of you when i'm sad or worry about something,i really can't cause your thought makes me weak.That's what i love and hate at the same time,that i love yous so much and you are the only one who makes me feel like this,and so weak.
Even if i feel all these things for you i couldn't imagine a life without you.I know i don't 'have you' but even if i could i wouldnit beacause you love someone else.Without you i would be a total nothing and a girl with no emotions.You made me believe in love.
I need you,I need to see you,I need to hug you,I need to kiss you,i need to touch you,touch tour lips.I need to tell you how much i love you,cause I love you,I love you more than breathing.I've never felt like this.It may sounds crazy but yeah that how i feel,i love you so freaking much that hurts.I love you with every little piece of my broken heart.
I'm really sorry that took so long,but i really had to say these things.Thank you for eveything Leeyum.Anyway i hope you're fine.Always smile please and remember i love you.Keep saving fans batman.
I love you.

Always your girl,
Anastasiaâ—¡̀ˆ

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