JD Phoenix · @MrJDPhoenix
1st Feb 2014 from TwitLonger
@QueerMeNow @Str8UpGayPorn *Must Read* http://t.co/qPnSWqCxrx Heading back to NY tomorrow. I tried to do it here in San Francisco but turns out I can't. I lost for what I thought was a friend to me, a guy I met in Las Vegas when I was on my own and 17, he drove me to my first porn shoot, to being totally subjected as a stranger and then being harassed by a drug head in his defense and that I should leave him alone while I thought he wasn't going back down that path. I need to move back to the East Coast and be with my true friends. My attraction to blood and scares have created a purpose and every time I hear the crack of the whip devours a little of the pain he and others have done to use me. Each of us have our ways to deal with pain and mine is public humiliation which leads to crying, body trembling, screaming, and barking. This is the only time I've ever giving my self in total submission which scares me every time I do it. Writing this passage was very hard and amount of tears have been shed on my account but I'm real and will continue being well real.