Though I have no desire to get involved again in what I thought was long past, it has come to my attention that there is yet another accusation of Sam and me being "bullies." To this I can only wonder where the roots of this ridiculous thought lies. I do not want to bring you in, and apologize on everyone's behalf that you've even been addressed on the matter. I find it only fair that I take a moment to speak for myself as well.
I only want to ask you to remember there are two sides to every story and as Sam stated, the entire situation that created this farce is still public on the feeds of those involved. I encourage you to research or question before making a conclusion, if you even give it a second thought. If you choose to read on, you will have the chance to hear mine, and I will appreciate very much your time.
I feel very sorry that this nonsense has bloomed so much into something that has torn up (against my will) something that was once so enjoyable, though now obviously based on false pretenses.
I hoped this would end quietly with the apparent ending of the relationships in question (at the hand of the other parties, mind you), but alas it resurfaces, why, I do not know, after all this time (it's been nearly a year). As for "attacking" Renee, you will easily see if you choose, what actually happened, as it remains public on her feed. I only spoke up in defense of Sam who was being belittled by Renee on John's feed. When I spoke, she outright and publicly attacked me in a series of tweets on John's feed, even after I asked her to speak to me directly, she disregarded my request. The entire situation was totally uncalled for and unfortunately ended our relationship with Renee as she said things that could not be taken back, and never wished to do so, making untrue statements about me and my friend, to others. After that, she never spoke to either of us again. Leilani (previous to that) also did not speak to us again after a similar situation when she made a joke about Sam not being able to meet her in person. I spoke up to defend her, as she had been in the hospital (of which Leilani was aware), and I felt the joke was insensitive. She disagreed, said some things, and blocked us, branding us "the Cusack bully twins" stating that we attack people on his feed and bully them. This is simply untrue. I just don't know what else to say about it.
I cannot begin to express the sadness that has followed both incidents as I truly thought both of them were my friends. I still do not understand it and always carry the pain of both the rejection and the misunderstanding of my character.
I hope you will make your own judgments and follow your instincts. I appreciate you taking the time to read this and again, I apologize for you being dragged into what amounts to juvenile drama, all because you spoke your mind and showed appreciation for two people in the same tweet with another who will not have the association.
Ideally I hope you will simply disregard the whole thing, knowing that you are of course free to tweet whatever and whomever you'd like. That this is not something that should ever have concerned any of you and that my only intention here is to have the opportunity to defend myself against a judgment made of me (and Sam) that is so far off base that it's literally painful.
Whatever you decide for yourselves, please know I care for you all, and that it is to my own pain that our lives have taken these turns, and I hope not to lose any others of you who I consider dear in my heart.

Bonnie

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