@TheSRKFC May I please ask you to RT my gift to Sir Khan too? I've not anything better, more personal & more valuable to give, other than my love. It's the best of me & I hope Sir Khan receives it...I wish more than anything, that he might receive it.
Thank you, so very much!

A letter to Sir Shah Rukh Khan

Hello Sir,

My name is Dysa, I’m from Romania (don’t think you’ve ever heard of this place…maybe only of Dracula, but we’re not responsible for him, Bram Stoker is & our Ministry of tourism was more than grateful).
It’s very difficult to write one’s feelings, because however illustrative, words & sentences always fail to encompass their full magnitude, meaning & nuance. But I’m going to try, because genuinely, I do wish my feelings reach you & more importantly, I hope you’ll feel good knowing that you are loved & revered by people from all over the world, people that are not Indians, people whom you’d probably never think would have anything to do with you. I don’t know if you do know Sir what the results of your work are, or what effects they have on people, so I’m going to type my best & craft my smartest phrases to try & tell you (& I hope I won’t misspell anything because I won’t read it again, else I’ll never have the courage to send it to you!).
The first film of yours I saw was My Name is Khan. Up until this point, I have been dwelling in my blissful arrogance & refused all Bollywood movies. I merely ignored everything that had to do with the topic & had no idea who makes films, I only knew Raj Kapoor & Aishwarya Rai (although I thought she was just the ex Miss World). My mom called me up one day & she said she wanted me to look at a film & tell her if the character is clinically plausible & if I think the actor does a good job (the habit of procrastinating has given me the wonderful opportunity to watch the Equator’s worth in films & I’m studying psychology). She added in a small voice “don’t burst into laughter…it’s a Bollywood movie”. With the kindness of bitter critic & shameless lying ability of a politician I giggled & said I’ll look at it sometime, thinking that it will happen on the day when a 3rd eye grows in the back of my head (ignorant, rash, foolish thoughts I painfully regret to this very second). When I got a break & went to visit my parents, mom cornered me with her big mommy eyes & sweet & irresistible manipulative mommy skills into saying yes to watching the film with her. And in my small, childish manner I thought I was doing her a favor, since it seemed to mean so much to her. So after promising her 20 times that I will not attempt to make any cheap jokes, she sat me down on my professional opinion & put the film on. What followed was the fastest conquer & conversion in the history of mankind! 30 seconds into the film & my “fine tuned” mind just stopped. I couldn’t believe my eyes (they were still working & since mainframe block head system was down they reported straight to the heart).I was overwhelmed by how the movie looked, took me completely off guard, which was a most fortunate thing because my judgmental side couldn’t regroup & before it could get a hold of me I was lost. 15 minutes into the film I heard the wisest most touching, raw, simple & untainted piece of truth: “there are only two types of people…”. About an hour into the film I had laughed my heart out, and then I cried like a helpless child & felt frustration towards injustices, my heart danced, my heart stopped, I was involved at an almost organic level (really, my narrow turns cold when the child dies). At the end of the movie, I was in a state of shock…all I could utter to mom was “please show me more….I’m an idiot….”. So you see Sir, from the first seconds I saw your work, I had already been transformed into a better person. You had thought me a lesson I couldn’t get in school & like all good Godsend experiences, it demolished any sort of barriers or defenses I had built around my heart & my sensitivity & what I truly felt was what I think the first breath of life feels! I felt peace & happiness, silence & drive, power deriving from my heart…I felt solace for the first time in my life. What followed was a 2 month movie marathon with my mom, where we saw roughly all of your films (including the guest appearances) & I can honestly say that not for one second did I feel I was watching something kitsch, or second best to anything! My eyes were wide open like a baby’s & I was paying attention to every word, every inflection. I kept oscillating constantly & thinking “this person can’t be real…is hee???….but he must because whenever I look at him I feel I’m looking at a part of myself, of my heart, my thoughts, my hopes, my dreams, my joys my sorrows”. You felt as real as the nose on my face & as unbelievable as an illusion, a projection of all goodness & hope printed on reels, concocted by a dream somewhere.
So then I begun to realize that truly & honestly, everything in life comes & happens for a reason, that God never leaves a loose end & He weaves his morals in numerous situations. This would be the greatest thing I’d feel so grateful to you for…although you might not believe me, but you gave me belief! And I believe that this is what a life lived in peace, harmony & passion resides on. I was somewhat oblivious to that, or rather a bit skeptical…but after knowing you, listening to you speak, after coming to learn of your life, your take on things, noticing all the similarities & all the differences I started crying with happiness & thanked God with my whole being & prayed nearly to depletion that you may always be happy, that He may protect you with all his love, that all the goodness in this Universe may be bestowed upon you, that all my gratitude may reach you & surround you & your beautiful loved ones.
So see Sir, in a sense, watching your movies & following the way you think, listening to you, watching you in different situations (from aversive press meetings to happy touching moments, to handling all sort of people in different interaction, to your determination & drive in your work, to your beliefs & traits – I’d better take a break here) has made me learn so many beautiful things about myself, which I was maybe afraid to admit or express into the open.
From that moment on, I have been routing for you ceaselessly & to my surprise, most of my friends knew your face from TV (so rest asure Sir, there was only one idiot on the block, but you’ve cured me). I started begging them to watch My Name is Khan with me, which gave me the opportunity to watch my behavior from the outside (the “ooooh, we’ll do it ‘cause we love ya’ & those freakishly big weepy eyes you keep poking at our face! how bad can it be?”). All of them Sir, without exception, even the most skeptical ones, the reluctant ones (they didn’t get away, I’m as persevering as a rash, but with subtle sweetness for distraction & a clear purpose in mind), all of them thanked me at the end. I looked at them closely & without exception I could see every emotion reflected in their eyes & expression. This brings me enormous joy! I’ve shown them a couple others of your films & one of the sweetest reactions was to Paheli, where my friend said at the end “what…no no no….why??? please don’t end…please! I felt like a dream rushed through me & my heart wants it back!!”.
There are films of yours that I’d actually show to people, when they feel they’re stuck or troubled & want an advice. I think in themselves, they can do more & give more hope, love & beauty than any array of words. Because for me, the effect is a most vital & enduring one: they ignite the need to know yourself, the trust to believe & dream & achieve, the need to give & receive gentleness & love. All of these coming from within will endure unlike the ephemeral glow given by listening to advice.
It’s useless to praise your acting & rather uncomfortable for me to do so, for I feel I truly am not worthy to speak or share an impression or opinion. It can be deduced from the rest of this letter that I believe that talent is a gift from God, & whenever it is showcased I believe God smiles & I can hear his voice soothing the odds of this world. Undoubtedly Sir, this is what I believe you are, God’s own man. Bless the beautiful souls of your parents, whom have raised you to be such an exquisite person & thank God for parting with such a beautiful piece of his holiness, to put it into one of us, for all of us to see, enjoy, appreciate & revere!
Although I have been following you on Twitter (actually that’s why I made the account & I was so nervous when I made it that I actually misspelled “thought” & actually kept “neverthaught” as my id…boy is it hard to explain to friends ), it hit me that what I’d genuinely like is that only my thoughts reach you! For I have so so much to thank you for Sir, I owe an immense amount to you, & so do all the people who know me & who have sampled the true, liberated, simple, heartfelt me. For I owe you so much, I desire that I give you a drop of happiness, or a smile or a bit of goodness everyday, in my own way! You know, I’m just that way too, you once said that you’re the type of boy that will make someone’s day brighter even if his own isn’t. And I find the greatest comfort thinking that maybe you do smile when out of the billion tweets you receive every hour, your eyes might fall upon mine & it would make you feel really well even for a second. A reply from you isn’t as soothing actually, because that may be circumstantial…in my greedy way I don’t want anything else but for my thought to reach you & maybe give you a bit of comfort, a bit of happiness, a bit of light, a bit of a laugh, a bit of goodness back from all that I owe you!
My truly deepest wish Sir Khan is that one day, whenever it may be, I in turn may be able to return all the goodness & the blessings you have given me. I pray to God that I maybe get this opportunity. I have no idea in which way…it is just my heartfelt desire to give something back to you as a symbol of my gratitude & admiration. However if I don’t I will be happy as well, for I’ll believe that God’s love never leaves you, & that my thoughts reach you always.
So Sir Khan, thank you from the bottom of my heart, for teaching me peace, tolerance, for helping me smooth all my odds & turning them into my beautiful flaws, for giving me the courage to let my true colors shine, for teaching me a lesson in humanity, for bringing my heart closer to the people around me, for making me express my love freely, for the joy of giving warmth & speaking my mind, for the drive to achieve as much as I can & to give my gratitude for all the blessings I have ever received & last but most important, for giving me belief!
Sir Shah Rukh Khan, I’m sending you all my love, all my admiration, I pray always that your beauty touches as many as possible & that you & your family be always surrounded by the delicate, soft, love, goodness & grace of this world, away from all that is unkind.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart, with all of my being, whatever goodness resides in me today is partially your gift Sir!
With all my love and respect,
Dysa

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