They say "God gives you only what you can handle" - well I don't believe that anymore. Here I sit dealing with all this bullshit tonight, and thats stacked on top of my mom's ill health, my own ailing health, and more things I haven't even shared - yet I continue to get up everyday and fight the good fight, yet I am realizing I am not strong enough anymore to deal with or handle all this drama online. My blood sugar tonight is 434 due to the stress over this, I have been called names, I have been thrown under bus, I have been accused of making up my illnesses, I have been accused of things I never even did, and the haters continue to just hate - then on the flip side there are a few good people out there. I sit at this computer all day as an outlet as I am stuck in my mom's house taking care of her 24/7 - this is all I have. My son who hates me cause I am gay, I guess that was his last excuse, has broken my heart for years - I am diseased by mental and physical illness. I created a radio show to bring the fans close to their favorite stars, then brought on a cohost, and after six months I was ready to go back to a solo show, then tonight's drama with my guest and his overdramatic ways, it's just too much guys, it really is. I have used social media as a way to express myself, to vent, to rant, to switch moods and just be me, whoever that is, and I just am plain tired. The future of my show could be changing as I may start do pre-recorded shows and aired once a week - no chat room, no callers, no drama. I am going to erase my personal twitter, and only use my show twitter to promote my show. I am DONE with you haters. I am done with the stress. My health is way too important than YOUR issues with me and my decisions I make. I am done with it all. So, if you want to keep up with me on Twitter - show related - you can follow @OnAirWithDoug - I want to thank everyone who has supported ME in this run. I just can't handle this anymore.

Doug

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