Harry Styles saved my life. Simple as that.

My life has been hard. Everyone says that, yes, but before you go judging me let me tell you, when I was younger my family used to always fight. My brother was very sucidle and wanted to kill himself all the time. He started to drugs to help him when it really made everything worse. He started getting abusive towards me and my mother. My brother wasnt the only one who had problems. My mother was never home, she worked third shift so I never got to seen her and when I could, she was next door cheating on my father. My dad really wasnt there for us either. He was always in his room and rarely came out. I had to become a very independent kid at a very young age. My dad moved out once he found out my mom was cheating on him. He moved 3 hours away from us and lived with his sister in Chicago. I was about 8.

My father ended up moving back to town and getting an appartment by himself. My mother lost our house so I had to move in with my dad. He lived in a one bed room appartment so I slept on the sofa. My mother eventually got another house with the man she was cheating with. I ended up liking him. He became a dad to me because I never really had one. I moved out of may dads appartment and back in with my mom. At that time, because my mom was happy, we became closer. She was actually acting like a mom.

My dad starting getting really sick. He couldnt walk so my brothers had to move in with him for a few days and help him walk. We ended up calling the ambulance to take him to the doctor and he was in the hospital for a very long time. The doctor told us he had Guillain-Barre Syndrome. This disease basically paralyzed him from the neck down. It messed with his muscles and made him very weak. He was doing good recovering from it. He was supposed to come home in a few days when they took him and made him go up stairs. He ended up falling and breaking his hip. They put him in surgery and on November 29, 2008 my father gave up during surgery.

As my dad had this going on, my mom was diagnosed with cervical cancer. That was in about 2007. It went away but only for a few years. It ended up coming back in, i think, 2010. It never all went away. She went through years of chemo and radiation. She was beautiful even when she had no hair left. She ended up getting really sick of having to go through chemo all of the time so sometime in early 2011 she gave up. She knew she wasnt going to be able to fight it anymore. She got really bad so June 30, 2011, we put her in a nursing home and I moved in with my grandparents. She was in there for a few weeks. I went and seen her everyday. Even if I was really busy. She ment everything to me. On August 6th the rest of my family told her it was ok for her to die. I refused to and everyone got mad at me. Little did they know that night I went home and wrote her a letter telling her it was ok to go. The next morning, August 7, 2012, at 6 in the morning I was awakened by my uncle telling me my mom died during the night in her sleep.

This is where Harry comes in. The date was March 7, 2012. I remember the date because it was exactly 7 months after my mother died. I was up in my room. I had cut myself before so I knew what it felt like. I knew that it only helped for a few seconds and that there would be a scar forever. I didnt care. I had to do it. I was listening to the radio with the blade on my wrist. As this song called What Makes You Beautiful started playing I started to push the blade into my skin harder.. then came the na na's. They were very distracting. So I didnt go any farther. I still left the blade on my wrist though. Then came Harry's solo. I was sitting there listening to the way his angelic voice came through the speakers telling me I was beautiful. I had to find out who that was. I put the blade down ran to my computer, just to find out that his name was Harry Styles. Ever since that day One Direction changed my life. They make my day so much better and Harry.. well hes just Harry and will always be the boy that I am in love with because he saved my life.

Thank you Harry Styles. For saving my life. I could have died that night. But because I had to find out who it was I didnt. He really and truely did save my life.

A massive thank you to him and his band. One Direction. <3

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