You are about to read a few of my captions that I wrote dedicated to Niall Horan, on Instagram.

• "Hey Niall, my beautiful baby Niall. This is really out of the blue and I just want to say that you are the reason for my smile eversince 2010, and for that, I really do not want you to ever stop smiling. I know I'm just like any other common fan in your eyes, but you are the one and only in my heart. I know, I realise and I know that I will never get you to notice me. I know you won't ever know me. I know you won't recognize the girl by the name of Mia Emily who's battling kidney cancer and loving you with all her heart. But even though you will never read this post or any other post I have written to you, God hears me. God listens and it is like any other prayer. I hope you keep smiling even after I have gone to the afterlife. I'm so proud of you and the lads for you have all come this far. Please never forget your love for Justin Bieber. Please remember the carefree, outgoing and funny Niall that you are and never ever change for the sake of a girl or the fans. You're already perfect in my eyes, you need not change a single thing, my dear. I hope after I go, you'll find a decent lady to share your love with. She's beautiful, clever, hilarious and cute. I know she will be. I'm hoping that your dream girl will arrive in your presence as soon as possible. I want to see you smile because of that special lady before I die. I want to know that you will be happy when you're with her. When you smile, I smile; and that's just the truth and not just a song. Your smile completes my day, and if I manage to see you smile before I die, I can gladly say that I live for that beautiful smile of yours and that your smile completes my life. I love you, Niall. Eversince I know the Niall Horan from Weastmeath, Mullingar 'till Niall Horan from the famous boyband, One Direction. Keep smiling, lovely. With love, Mia xo."

• "Hi Niall. My name is Mia. I'm 16, from Canada & I am a huge Directioner. On top of that, I really love you. You have ho idea how much I love you. I love you to the extend that I would "catch a grenade for you". Yes, I would go to that extend. You mean so much to me and I don't ever think that you'll know that I exist. I'm a normal human being. I'm quite normal until I got diagnosed with cancer. Kidney cancer. I was diagnosed with this since I was 5 and I still have not recovered from it. Recently, I went to the hospital and the doctor said that I was progressing towards recovery; good news isn't it? But that doesn't mean that I have recovered fully. I now have 3 weeks left of living in this Earth, and many people told me to do extraordinary things but all I wantto do is to see photos of you smiling. I can't bring myself to do any other things than this. I hope one day after I have given out my last breath, you would come across my Instagram and read all the long captions that I have written for you. I love you Niall. May you have a great future and become a great inspiration and role model. I hope you meet the live of you life, become a wonderful boyfriend, husband, and father. I wish you the best in life with the band, your family & your love life. <3 Love, hugs and kisses, Mia xo"

• "I'm not gonna say much. You're my idol. You're my inspiration. You don't know I exist. You'll never know. I don't have the chance to know you, see you, meet you, hug you or anything. There are better girls out there, better than I am. There are greater Directioners who deserve to meet you more than I do. Many people say it, but I don't like to admit that I am your #1 fan myself, because I know that there are still many other people who loves you more than I do. I'm dying. Simply put, but very effective. I have an illness, and I don't have much time left. I'm gonna leave soon, but before I do, I want to witness you smiling. Not just any smile. I want to witness your smile of love. I want to see and acknowledge who will your special princess be. I want to see you smile because of her. That's the last thing I wanna do before I go. Because I will know that you'll be happy with her and it will ensure me that the both of you will be safe in each other's arms. Many might say that my captions always touch the hearts of others, but I have always hoped that it will touch the heart of yours. I love you, Niall. I might not have the right to call myself "Mrs. Horan", but I do know that that name will be owned by a very special lady who is really beautiful and cheeky - just like you, Nialler."

• "Never hide yourself from the world. Niall, you are such a beauty and that beauty of yours mustn't be hid from the world. I know how people are always teasing you about how you look, but please do me a favour? NEVER let these bad comments get to you. Please don't get affected by them and what they have to say. You are beautiful and you know that. Everyone is beautiful in their own ways; and you are beautiful in SO MANY WAYS! You have no idea how perfect you already are in our eyes. You have such an amazing personality. We all know that you will never stop eating because there's an angel eating on the inside of you. The beautiful wonderful angel is living in you. Thus, you having the voice of an angel. You are MY angel. I love you, and remember to never change yourself alright babe. With love, Mia. xo"

• "Words cannot explain how much I love Niall James Horan, a wonderful and lovable boy that was introduced to me during the auditions on X Factor UK 2010. I fell deeply in love with him, and supported him until he was put into a band named One Direction; and I continue supporting him and his bandmates till present. I have come across many obstacles in life. My very own family is falling down; but everytime I cry because of all the things that's happening, I'll look up and find posters of Niall in my room, and he makes me calm again. I remember that I still have the 1D family. Eventhough I'm going through kidney cancer, I know the amount of time I have left on this Earth is too precious to do anything else but to love Niall Horan. I know sooner or later, I'm gonna die. I'm gonna leave this Earth without Niall knowing that I exist, that I lived and walked on this Earth. He wouldn't know how much I love him. He wouldn't know who I am and why I wrote this. He wouldn't even read this. I have very little time left, and I just wanna say that whoever is the lucky girl to be Niall's future girlfriend or wife, I hope you stand by him and make him smile all the time. I hope you treat him well and I hope he treats you well too. I won't be alive to see him smiling because there's somebody for him to share his love with. I would die to see it happening. I don't know, maybe I'll get to find out even when I'm in the afterlife, I don't know. I hope Niall lives a happy life, and I can never be more proud of my little Irish leprechaun. I'm proud of him that he has come this far. I love you, Nialler. You are the reason I'm smiling ever so widely despite the short lifetime span that I have left. I love you so much. xo"

• "I wanna leave this world staring in his eyes. I want to give my last breath saying, "I love you, Niall Horan." I want to end my life with Niall knowing how much I love him, how I have stuck by him through thick and thin, how I have always been very true to him and how I was very inspired by him and now inspiring people. I want to listen to his heartbeat before my heartbeat stops beating. I want him to know who I am. I want him to notice me. But then I know too that everyone wants the same thing. Everyone of you want Niall to notice you. Everyone deserves a chance to meet him, know him, talk to him, hug him, and sorts. I'm not pretty enough to stand out from all these beautiful Directioners that might catch Niall's eye in an instant. Everyone wants out little hottie from Mullingar. I won't stand a chance at all."

These are some out of the many captions that I wrote to Niall on my Instagram. If you wish to read more, my Instagram is @horansbabe. My name is Mia, Mia Emily. & yes I'm a sick girl who is dying. I love Niall James Horan and that's all you need to know.

With love & kisses,
Mia Emily xo

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