Rosalind Elson · @rosalindelson
1st Nov 2011 from Twitlonger
[DAESUNG'S INTERVIEW FROM CHURCH PART 1 FULL]
We have carefully set up this interview with Daesung. After that shocking accident 4 months ago, not only he immediately suspended all his activities, especially doesnt want any media interviews such things. Like this, he said to us "I believe Champyungan interview is not decided by people wishes, If God agrees to this, then it will happen, if it is not the time, then it will not happen. Do not need to insist too much." A few days later, We received a reply from him "U accept"
Oct 02 2011, after finishing 2 prayers We met Kang DaeSung
1. We interviewed you last year but a lot has happened frpm then. How are you recently?
- Basically I spend my time in the church, normally I help out the church or the youth group Hepzibah, and then go to the Commission.
2. Like this putting a lot of time and effort in the church, What do you feel?
- After the accident happened, it was very tiring, I even have such thoughts "If people do not trust me, I dont really know what stupid things that I will do. "after went through the most tiring 3-4days, I wanted to meet with the church elderly - Veteran Pastor. I asked one reverand whether is it alright to visit the elderly, and I got positive reply. After meeting him, I felt at ease and he gave me a lot of good comfort words that made my mind feels really calmed. and then the church becomes my everything, the only thing will let me have peaceful mind.
3. "If I dont recieve the trust from others, I will probably have done stupid things" what does this mean?
- Artists often commit suicide isnt it? I can understand their feeling, because this is the reason that cause artists to commit suicide. Although I dont have any suicidal thoughts, but If I dont get the trust from people, I will drift further to the suicidal paths. So I have to be thankful to the power of prayers. Thank you guys for trusting me, Those comments really hurted my heart. The words that made me tire, once a stranger brought a banner with "Killer" on it and stood in front of the church entrance. People use the term "Killer" to look at me, that is my thought.
4. As long as it is within the church it doesnt matter isnt it?
- Of course, although there are a group of people see this situation (me) cannot be peaceful anymore, but inside the church my heart and mind is calmed, but in the dorm I feel very anxious, I cannot eat anything, but in the church I can. Because there are works need to be done at church, so while working, I will not think negatively.
5. For those people who dont believe "going to church will help you calm your mind" If this does not work, why do I feel calmed?
- We are the followers of the church, we shall be able to undetstand the meaning of it. For me, compare church to home, The church makes me feel more peaceful. I read the same articles about me devoting myself to church, only christian people believe in this, thus giving me a good comment.
6. How about the first 3-4 (after the accident)?
- It was impossible to step out from my room, felt very guilty, the scene always appeared on my mind, alone thinking about negative stuff, and that was what i did for the whole day.
7. So what else did u think?
- Whatever it is it's my fault, so i felt very sorry towards him (the victim) , and i prayed a lot. But when I prayed, I remembered the moment the accident happened so I could not continue to pray. This was just at the beginning though, after praying I said "Sorry" and then no longer able to speak more again. Within 20 minutes I kept saying "Sorry" then I began to cry
8. Because of what you felt sorry?
- Firstly, I felt sorry for the victim, then to the company and the members. Also when I thought about it, I felt that our church might be affected by that matter. I did not only expose the church to bad influence, but the church had to suffer from foul gossips. I feel very sorry. I also feel very sorry to my parents and his parents.
9. After thi incident did you go to his funeral, that I guess it's not an easy thing to do
- The pace was heavy, but I thought I needed to go. No matter what, this matter involved me, I beared a very deep feeling of sorrow, so I thought I really need to go, but it was very hard to step on his funeral hall, and had to meet face to face with his family members. But then suddenly his family members comforted me.
10. So what did they say?
- They should feel very angry that time (the victim's family members), but after talking to one another they said "the thing has become what it is right now, in the future we need to cherish and live our life more seriously, I wish the reason for us to meet again is because of wonderful things" His aunty told me that because his parents were really sick" Daesung on meeting the family members when he went to pay his respect
source : http://www.champyungan.com/bbs/board.php?bo_table=2_1&wr_id=74
chinese translation : 咚咚噗
english translation : rnosel@twitter
part 2 will be translated by ricekwon@twitter