Jude Prudence · @JudePrudence
27th Dec 2010 from Twitlonger
There is only about a single degree that seperates what Adam Wan did to ferality and actual rape. Barely any distinction need even be made in the circumstances and events that've come to light in recent memory and I find myself conflicted in even stating this, because I know what it sounds like.
Rest assured, I find Zaush's actions as disgusting as you do. I was appalled as much as you were when the screencap of ferality's note first surfaced on /furi/. There is no excuse for this. There need to be atonement. And while I may disagree with many that Zaush's act does not constitute rape, I am entirely certain that he is capable of it. And while there may not be an excuse for Adam Wan's behavior, there is a reason. He is quite literally a clear cut case of sociopathy:
*Manipulative and Conning. Never recognizing the rights of others and see their self-serving behaviors as permissible. They appear to be charming, yet are covertly hostile and domineering, seeing their victim as merely an instrument to be used. They may dominate and humiliate their victims.
*Grandiose Sense of Self. Feels entitled to certain things as "their right".
*Pathological Lying. Has no problem lying coolly and easily and it is almost impossible for them to be truthful on a consistent basis. Can create, and get caught up in, a complex belief about their own powers and abilities.
*Lack of Remorse, Shame or Guilt. A deep seated rage, which is split off and repressed, is at their core. Does not see others around them as people, but only as targets and opportunities. Instead of friends, they have victims and accomplices who end up as victims. The end always justifies the means and they let nothing stand in their way.
*Need for Stimulation. Living on the edge. Verbal outbursts and physical punishments are normal. Promiscuity and gambling are common.
*Callousness & Lack of Empathy. Unable to empathize with the pain of their victims, having only contempt for others' feelings of distress and readily taking advantage of them.
*Poor Behavioral Controls IE Impulsive nature. Rage and abuse, alternating with small expressions of love and approval produce an addictive cycle for abuser and abused, as well as creating hopelessness in the victim. Believe they are all-powerful, all-knowing, entitled to every wish, no sense of personal boundaries, no concern for their impact on others.
*Irresponsibility and Unreliability. Not concerned about wrecking others' lives and dreams. Oblivious or indifferent to the devastation they cause. Does not accept blame themselves, but blames others, even for acts they obviously committed.
*Promiscuous Sexual Behavior and Infidelity. Promiscuity, child sexual abuse, rape and sexual acting out of all sorts.
*Criminal or Entrepreneurial Versatility. Changes their image as needed to avoid prosecution. Changes life story readily.
Look at Adam Wan's behavior as described in ferality's notes. Look at his reactions on twitter. His commentary on his FurAffinity journal. The content of Adam Wan's pornography involving him and women in general. The man selects women that are emotionally unable to continue denying and refusing him, whether or not he makes a conscious or unconscious effort in doing so. Justifies his actions as that of an open lifestyle superior to what he determines to be outdated monogamy and that sex and love can be seperate from each other. The literal need for sexual gratification, and on his terms, and the entitlement that he feels to recieving it whenever he wants. The ability of this man to grope or fondle someone regardless of (And often in spite of) being turned turned down or rejected. The perpetual headgames and indirect coercion he plays to force consent out of a partner. His obvious inability to control or handle (or even acknowledge) his problems, and automatically projects the blame on someone else. The utter lack of empathy or understanding for the feelings and emotions of his victims, perhaps to the point of not consciously recognizing their emotional or mental state. The complete, total, blinding narcisism. His attempts at downplaying what he did in late december 09 / january this year to ferality and (Possibly) falsifying chatlogs to bolster his defense from the accusations against him. There are so many examples to choose from.
And to think, one of his earliest works was of a stalker depicted as an antagonist, beaten to a pulp by his victim's boyfriend.
The person's marital & relationship status does not matter to him and has, repeatedly, attempted to sabotage or destroy relationships he saw as being in his way. He attempted it on lilBlooWolf and may've been successful on occassions after her ( Ferality?). He has likely done to this to far more women than we currently know about. I have very good hunches as to whom they may be, but I am not going to share their identities.
I believe in calling things by their rightful name, and I call Adam Wan sick. Not as an insult; Not to belittle him; but to clearly label the man as mentally ill and a danger to others. and even if you disagree with the idea that Zaush is a sociopath; that he's a case of Antisocial Personality Disorder: You cannot deny that he isn't an emotional shut in, and that he does not grasp the concept of a simple, easy to understand two letter word like the rest of us do. He has problems and instead of acknowledging or realizing them, takes them out on others. There is in all likelihood a chance that he's only aware of a half or a third of the things he does. Such is the nature of a mental disorder.
The man is not to be trusted nor admired nor defended. He does not need acceptance, but therapy. Psychiatric evaluation and treatment. And if you people that follow and listen to him had any ounce of consideration for him outside of your narrow world view through the furry community, you would not be showering him in blanket praise and consolation. If you cared about him, you would be telling him the truth. If you cared about Adam Wan outside of him as a furry porn production line, you wouldn't be serving as an echo chamber for his delusions. Adam Wan has little to no chance of finally grasping and understanding the severity of his acts and you only serve to further blind him from reality and the world outside of his head.
How many women is it going to take? He's already with another one.